Habits [G!P] ✔️

High.

You're gone, and I gotta stay high all the time, to keep you off my mind...

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"Yeji..."

The voice could be heard in the distance, as my body moved of its own volition, but my mind was somewhere else.

My eyes were closed and I couldn't manage to concentrate, I didn't even know what music was playing, my head was spinning and all I could do was think about her.

Why?

"Yeji!"

I opened my eyes when Giselle grabbed me by the shoulders and shook me a little. Apparently she was calling me a while ago, but her voice was so far away.

"Hmmm?"

I just answered that way, I saw her in front of me looking at me in a strange way, but I saw everything around her in a blur, then I blinked several times to be able to focus, but no matter how hard I tried, it wasn't working.

"I think you're already very drunk, we'd better go home..."

"No!" I felt the voice of some idiot who had come with us, which I didn't remember. "Don't go yet! Yeji is having a great time, isn't she!?"

I felt him put his arm on my shoulder, while I still had my eyes on Giselle, who was right in front of me and the truth was that I didn't want to leave, I wanted to keep drinking more and more because I could still remember her and what I intended to do was to forget her, like I did every night.

"Yeji... Are you sure you want to go on?!"

She asked me getting closer to me, the high volume of the music didn't let me hear her clearly, but from her face, I could tell she was worried about my state.

I had been drinking bottle after bottle for almost 5 hours now, without stopping for a moment and I had also ingested some other things you don't want to know about.

"Let me, Gigi... I want to keep going, I want to keep drinking, I need to get it out of my head..."

I saw her look at me as if she felt sorry for me and denied, then I went over to where some other friends were, dancing and enjoying myself, clearly while staggering.

There were too many people in the club, everything was dark with a few neon lights illuminating some people's faces from time to time, sweaty bodies rubbing against each other and some others, about to have sex on the dance floor.

A hand passed me a bottle of beer and I received it, as I always did, drinking every last drop, while I felt my body deteriorating at the rate I was keeping since she was not with me.

I closed my eyes again and raised my arms, as my body started to move. Suddenly, I heard her voice again...

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Months ago...

"Yeji..."

"Ryujin... Please don't do this to me!" I walked over to her and threw myself into her arms. I saw her resist the urge to hug me, but she did.

"Yeji, don't make this harder for me, please..."

I cried and sobbed in her arms, I didn't want to let her go, she had become the love of my life and even if my parents didn't agree, I had fought against all that.

My family were very important people, with strong surnames in the city and a lot of weight. Although I had been happy in my childhood, they were about to ruin me, when they didn't accept my relationship with Ryujin.