! 𝘄𝘄𝘄.𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗲.𝗰𝗼𝗺

OO1.

Felix was sitting at his desk doing his homework. He didn't really have anything else to do so why not start on it now? He was blasting his headphones and hummed the lyrics as he listened. He hadn't been able to relax for the past week. Han and his friends had been dragging him out to parties... On top of that, Minho has been ignoring him for some reason. I mean, Minho wasn't his boyfriend so he couldn't say anything. They were "fuck buddies". Felix didn't like the sound of that at all. He wanted Minho to love him and just not his body.

Felix was so into his thoughts he didn't notice Minho enter. Minho gently placed his hand on the other's shoulder making him flench. Felix jolts up to see Minho standing there. Felix took of his headphones and took a deep breath.

"Holy shit, you can't be doing that."

"Sorry," Minho bluntly apologized.

Felix closed his computer and got up. He wanted to ask Minho about ignoring him. But before he could Minho smashed his lips into Felix's, lustfully and aggressively kissing him. Felix let his emotions get the best of him and kissed Minho back. He knew Minho didn't care but let him do it.

Minho pushed Felix on the bed straddling him. He starts to kiss on the youngers neck, making Felix slightly whimper. Felix brushed his fingers through Minho's hair as he allowed the other to kiss and touch on him. Half of Felix wanted this but another didn't. However, the "I want him" side of Felix dominated his entire mind and emotions, he couldn't stop himself.

Minho started unbuckling Felix's pants, going into to his boxers to stroke his member. Felix grabbed Minho's face and kissed him again. Felix moaned as he kissed Minho. He couldn't get enough of Minho's touch. He constantly wanted, needed, and desired it. But then Felix thought, he ignored you for the past few days! Why are you letting him do this?!

Felix pushed Minho away and angrily sighed.

"What?"

"So you ignore me then come have sex with me?" I ask

"I wasn't ignoring you?"

Felix pushed Minho off of him and got up. Before Felix left the room, Minho grabbed his arm and pulled him close.

"Look Felix, I apologize. I wasn't trying to ignore you."

Felix looked away and Minho pulled him closer, closing the gap between them. He starts to kiss on his neck again. Felix wants to give in so bad but he shouldn't. He was going to push Minho away again but the older kissed him again. Felix roughly hits the wall as Minho pins him on it. Felix gave in again... Now they were making out again. Oh how Felix wished he could not give in.

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Minho had already left their dorm to go out. Felix just sat in bed crying into his pillow. Why did he love Minho so much? Why couldn't he just let him go. He grabbed his pillow in screamed in it. Then he heard his phone ring. He looked next to him on the dresser to see that Changbin was calling him. He grabbed it and started crying even harder.

"Changbin what do I do?"

"Woah Felix, what's wrong??"

Felix was crying so hard he couldn't even explain. He was so fed up and done but couldn't stop himself. Changbin just said he'd be over and hung up. Felix tried to relax himself but couldn't. He was having a breakdown. All he could think about was Minho and Minho only. Why didn't Minho love him? Was he in love with someone else but just used him. Felix couldn't breathe. He couldn't breathe. He tried to hard to stop crying but the more he did, the harder it got. Felix sat up and sat there gasping for air. After a while, his breathing started to regulate. But he was still crying. He heard his door constantly getting banged on so he got up and went to the door. As soon as he opened the door, Hyunjin embraced him. He tightly hugged him and Felix hugged back. Then Changbin and Jisung joined the hug. This was the only time he actually felt loved by someone and not used.

Hyunjin let go after a while and looked at Felix. He had red, puffy eyes from crying so much. Hyunjin wanted to cry just looking at Felix. Everyone knew Felix was the happy, jolly friend of the group and to see him in this state broke everyone's hearts.

Why couldn't he just get over Minho? He wanted him romantically... Not sexually. Hyunjin suggested that they should all go out and have fun so Felix could take his mind of Minho. Everyone agreed and went to a bar because why not? Even though it was still a school week, getting drunk wouldn't be too bad.

And holy shit did Felix get drunk. The rest of the group was a bit tipsy but was able to get Felix home. By the time Felix got back home, Minho was home. Felix entered their dorm and plopped on the couch.

"Are you drunk?"

Felix nods in a response as he closes his eyes. After that, Felix was drained from the drinking and clubbing. Shit, he was just tired and drunk.

Minho turned off his phone and left the living room, leaving Felix by himself. Of course, Minho didn't want to see him like that.

Of course...

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- LUKA
if you see any grammar mistakes, lmk
3/2/23