His Son's Nanny ( Freader × B.H ) Disconnected

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We just got home, Brahms carried Brahmsy to his room without talking or looking at me, even during the drive. He's avoiding me now after he was the one who kissed me on the park.
I just smiled. I went to my room to change my clothes.

I'm fully naked now, I was about to wear my shirt when someone knocked on the door.

Knock knock knock

I went near the door and asked.

" Who is it? "

" It's me "
His voice was familiar and deep. It sounds like he whispered it.
I wore my wardrobe on my closet and opened the door.

His eyes meets mine but immediately looked down at my body, He raised his brow and looked away from me.

" Sorry for disturbing, *Cough* "

" Umm..Do you need anything? "
I ask him.

He shook his head and sighed.

" I'm sorry about earlier, For kissing you i mean and ignoring "
I'm surprised he apologies. I just know most men won't apologies for a kissed.

I didn't replied, i just looked at him and waiting for his real reason why'd he called me.
He seem noticed my gaze.

" I like you "
He confessed to me. My eyes winded, I felt my cheeks getting warmer.

" I- You what? "
I must have misheard him.

" You Heard Me "
I didn't spoke, i lost words.
I lowered my gaze and looked at the floor.

" But You sai— "

" I know i said that before but i didn't know I'd catch feelings, It wasn't supposed to happen "
He explained himself.

I backed away and closed the door but Brahms catched it and pushed it gently. I'm no match for his strength.

He took steps forward, i was about to backed away again when my nape was already held by his large hands, He closed the door quitely with his other hand. I was about to speak when he immediately placed his lips on my parted mouth. His tongue entered my inside. 

He then pinned me on the wall behind me and continued kissing me, I don't know what he was thinking but he's out of his mind right now. His hand went to my legs and opened them, While my legs are widely parted He placed himself between my legs and began moving his hips. I could feel his member getting harder.

I gathered my left energy, Placing my hands on his shoulder and pushing him aggressively.

" You're out of your mind! "
I yelled at him. My eyes began to water, I'm afraid i would get raped by him since he was more advantages. He just stared at me with those eyes, i can't read his eyes. This wasn't what he mean earlier!

He pinned my both wrist on top of my head with his large hand. He  was about to kiss me when i moved.

" This isn't like "
I glared at him.

" Don't you want it too? "
He ask. I got more mad and irritated.

" No—I don't! "
My voice began to shutter, my tears had already fallen through my eyes.

His expression changed quickly,
He removed his hand on my wrist and cupped my face.

" Shhh-Shhh, I didn't mean "
He tried to calm me down which was kinda working.

" I'm sorry "
He carried me and bring me to my bed, making me sit on the edge.

He kneeled down infront of me.

*sigh* " Im Sorry- I lost my control there, it Wont happen again "
he assured me, Im aware it will happen again.

" Please— Get out...."
I whispered.

He stood up and left like i said.

I can't read him, He's so hard to read. I can't tell if he immediately lost interest after not i didn't let him have sex with me or did he obeyed for me wants me to calm down.

I laid down, my head hurts. I don't wanna cry but my chest felt heavy, I sighed. Tomorrow would be weird..I hope i won't get bumped into him by accident or what.

I slowly stood up and locked the door, i then put some clothes on.
I shouldn't opened the door in the first place, I'm such a fool.