Mr. Professor

Chapter 10

Pragya's view:

At first it was evident that he was filled with astonishment as his lips were tightly sealed & refused to move along with mine. "Mmmmm! soft lips" I briefly wondered. I mouthed his lips. I found my emotions untangle deep inside me when I started to chew his lower lips. I was hurting & was blindsided by pure jealousy. How could he ever touch someone else & let her touch him? He's mine!! FUCKING MINE!! When my jealousy overtook my love, it made me want to hurt him. I had bitten his lower lip roughly & he hissed in pain. I continued to chew his lips when my one hand found its way to his back & the other clasped in his hair. I thought Abhi would push me away & ask me to get off of him. If my bhai gets to know about this he will think so cheap of me‌, I knew him well. But I couldn't care less. I felt my legs going numb. I parted from him & looked at him with fury reflecting in my eyes. He looked at me with guilt written all over his face. I pushed him towards the wall, so I could pin him on the wall. For some reason my legs wanted some support. As I pushed him, he was baffled with my sudden action & felt pain resurfacing his body when it crashed on the hard surface of the wall. He again hissed. My one hand cupped his face angling to kiss & other hand caressed his hair while I started to kiss again. This time he kissed back. What does this mean? THAT HE HAS FEELINGS FOR ME LIKE I HAVE FOR HIM? We passionately started to kiss each other. The room was clouded by an intense feeling of wanting. His kiss reached the dark depths of my soul. We both surrendered ourselves to the desire we have for each other. His hands interlaced around my waist. At first our lips weren't in sync. But then we found our own rhythm & let our instincts guide us. After a certain time I felt it's not enough for me. I wanted more. I started to push my tongue to his throat. He moaned. I realised his soft moans are something to cherish for a lifetime. It's sinful to have such a soft but intense voice during moaning. When I thought about his moans I realised it's all happening because I heard Tanu's moan. My eyes shot open & I immediately backed off from Abhi. Thinking the way he touched the other lady is nauseating. Something started to crumble down inside me. He opened his eyes in a daze to see me walking towards the dressing table where the tissue box was kept. I took out some tissues wiping my lips which were covered with our saliva. I took a few more tissues from the box. Reaching him I touched his lips to check the bleeding because of my bite. While we were kissing I felt blood taste apart from his taste. So I assumed his lips were bleeding because of me. Checking whether he's okay felt really important. His lips were swollen & realised my bite did cause his lips to bleed. I leaned up once more to suck on the blood. I parted from him soon & started to dab the tissue on his lips roughly. He hissed in pain yet again. I looked at him intently & said "Remember this when you touch someone else or when you let someone else touch you" & shoved some tissue on his hands & stormed off the room without another word.

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Dinner time passed quickly as we both tried to avoid each other. At night I decided to text Akshati. But in person I can explain to her better. So I shut that thought out & laid on the bed hoping to get some sleep. My mind was surrounded by the thought cloud of 'Abhi'.

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Next day morning when I woke up, I thought about checking on Abhishek. Bhai was already gone to his work. I softly knocked on his door. But there was no reply. I looked at the clock & realised Abhi too might've gone to college as it was pretty late. I hurried up to the bathroom to get ready.

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Last hour before lunch:

It was Abhishek's hour. I don't know why I'm getting excited to see him. After our desire filled kiss i didn't see him. Neither checked on him. I should see how I marked my territory on his lips. Maybe that's what excites me now. He opened the door & entered inside the class. I looked at him. His lips looks slightly swollen but I don't think anybody would get suspicious about it. It made me upset. I expected people to ask him what happened to his lips. Everytime when people question about it he will get reminded of I & our kiss. To my dismay nothing happened as such. He took his usual place on the dias & started to teach us. For once he neither turned his head towards my side nor smiled at me. It made me sad. "He's ignoring me. So nice of him. Great going Abhishek mehra" I mentally sighed.

Bell rang, signalling the end of the class. He thanked the class & exited.

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During lunch break:

When I was contemplating whether I should go to his staff room to discuss the spoken fest, basically I wanted to ask him why he was ignoring me. But Akshati's voice broke my trance. We were sitting under the tree outside the noisy canteen as it's our usual spot.

"So spit it out! What's that?" she asked nonchalantly. She knows if something or someone bothers me. She just knows it all. The only person I can share everything with, is Akshati. I can be vulnerable. She won't judge me.

I looked around to check whether anyone was near us who could hear us. Thankfully none was there. Yet I can't take risks. I scooted towards her & whispered carefully in her ears, "I kissed Abhi".

"In your dreams??" she asked with a smug smile.

"No!" I whispered loudly this time. But she seemed to be unphased by whatever I said.

"I was expecting this" she said in a 'i know it all' tone. She continued "with the way you were behaving yesterday I was expecting you to fucked up".

"I was just.. just jealous..& I fucking don't know what was I doing. And today he didn't even glance at me once. If he doesn't like me, why did he kiss me back? He's fucking ignoring me & my feelings for him. Just because he thinks it's not right doesn't make my feelings invalid" my mind clouded with sudden excruciating pain of realising how ignorant Abhi is & I started to sob silently.

"Hey don't! Come here" Akshati hugged me & I hugged back her tightly. I know what I'm doing is wrong. He & I have no chance together. And i fucking don't even know whether he has feelings for me. Yet I'm hurting myself like this.

"Pragya, I want to clear up a few things with you. But before that, here take it" she offered me her water bottle. I sipped it slowly.

"What's that?" I asked in a low tone. Maybe she's gonna advise me it's not right & my bhai trusts both of us as he's letting both of us stay together in the same apartment.

"He's a big red flag maybe you didn't realise! I can explain if you're okay with it" Akshati said cautiously to not hurt my feelings.

"Go ahead!" I said, shaking my head. I know it will hurt my feelings. But I needed to hear the truth.

"He himself doesn't know what he wants. He lets you touch him, he takes you home through his bike, even when you hug him tightly he never refuses. I didn't want to say this but…" she inhaled a sharp breath & continued "that day at Nikhil's, he behaved like a possessive boyfriend. He once told you that you can ogle at him which practically means he's aware that you've attraction towards him. When you kissed him he reciprocated it with equal vigour & now ignoring you. Because he might have thought he committed a mistake. So running away from you, which ain't gonna solve any problem tho. I won't point my fingers at you because he led you. He could've said NO when you first kissed him on his chest or would have kept some distance but he continually giving mixed signals which is a BIG NO & a RED FLAG. I understand that you're in love. But you surely had to get over him" she finished in a single breath. "It's up to you hereafter. But just know I'm always here for you" she added in an assuring tone.

Sure! Akshati has some valid points. But my gut feelings says he has feelings for me. He made me feel as such. Maybe I'm so delusional. My mind started to discombobulate thinking about whatever Akshati said. I absent mindedly looked up & saw Abhishek was standing right in front of me. It took me a minute to register that he was actually standing there.

"Pragya, meet me at my staff room after the last hour. We need to discuss the fest" he said firmly & without emoting anything he left.

"What do you have to say about this? He himself asked me to come because he wanted to talk. Is it still a red flag?" I asked expectantly.

Akshati's eyebrows shrieked in annoyance "It's still a red flag. He doesn't want to talk about the kiss. He wants to talk about the fest, idiot" Akshati furiously retorted. As the bell rang we both stood up & headed towards our class.