My father always used to shift from different places kabhi idhar kabhi udhar I used to think ki why can't we stay at one place, at one home and yk we can't. Because he did a business of drugs. He always runs from police, after sometime we moved here, Surat. The worst part was ki when i was eight my father beat me everytime, from childhood when i was born he never cared about me, he drink every night and hit me every night and my mom never stops him infect she likes to hear my screams. She never stops him, I loved my mom but this thing hurts me the most. He was a beast. And my mom his slave. One day when i came home from school i saw the most horrible thing,he, my father was literally trying to rape my mom...... again he hit me because I was trying to stop him.....and the mean reason to do all this was because I wasn't his child.....i have to say this ki my mom had a boyfriend...idk where he is right now... I'm his kid .....I was in my mom stomach when it was her wedding with my father....no one knows about it only my mom knows....she doesn't stop that wedding even though she was pregnant with her boyfriend baby....and when my father gets to know about me... about me in her stomach....he hit my mother too... And that's the only reason why he hates me... because I'm not his child..and he used to think I'm unlucky to him .. because my father was a great business man too but when i born..the same day my father lost all his business and when he couldn't do anything he started to sell drugs..... When i came here at Surat i thought my Life will be the same i thought my father will again move to another city but....my life changes here.... I was singing at night, sitting on my house roof when a girl named Saisha saw me, we become friends, friends to lovers....but destiny didn't want us to be together...Sai got a heart disease...she passed away in four months, she spend this four months with me.... 6 July when we were sitting on her house roof and looking at the stars she said "Darshan.....I know we are friends...but this... feeling..i..i can't ignore it idk how...but i i think..i started loving you...i mean whenever you are with me idk what happens to me...i..i... think.. I'm in love with you..." Crazy right!?? Just some months of being together and she fell for me... there's a say it goes like "A writer writes on a single page but that's full of their experience"
Sai was something else...she wasn't like any other girl...she doesn't like parties...she likes to be alone... "alone is peace" she used to say and music was her favourite and you know Naushad Bhai I wrote this song "Pheli mohobbat" about her it's all about her...i fell for her... chahie ek young age pe kyu na but i just fell for her...love is a great word all that i found within her....all my songs are for her.....i miss her...she doesn't get love but she knows how to spend it....I just loved her and one day she left me...she left her family, she left her friends....she left her memories with me...with us...this is her room were i saw a dream of having a beautiful family with her ...but destiny. I never believe in god because of all this what happens with me .. people say..when you have good heart god will help you..but i saw opposite...god helps does who do bad things...Sai was good but....
My father wents to jail because of Sai's father he saw him hitting me and later when he was in jail the police found out he also do a business of drugs...life was end for him...he got heart attack in the jail only..and me and my mom were happy that he is no more but still we were alone...mom started to look for a job..she got..but it was affecting her health...still she did the job for me...and yeah after sometime Sai left us...it was her who saved me and mom...she called me.. because that night when the whole Sharma family saw him hitting me...she went to school, she doesn't find me and called me well that's another story...i have so many...
Sai...this name.. it's just not a name once it was my life...and still it is...it was Sai's wish... She wants me to become India's rockstar... that's how my journey started and I got such a loving family....my bluefamily... whenever I do a concert i wish Sai was there... seeing me and shooting my name....dreams are still dreams.... My mom left me as you all know...but Sai's mom also left this world after Sais death...she was mother... losing a child...no one can know better then a mother....
I was depressed.. after Sais death...i wrote songs yes...all sad songs... happiness was nothing for me....
Sais friends who are my friends too always visits me....i smiled for them but deep down my heart was crying.... I didn't have anyone to share my feelings...
And... Saisha's dream..to complete her book...I wrote most of the parts...of her book and am still...i couldn't give a happy ending to this book because I know...my ending will not be a happy ending...
My life already ended when she left....I find my happiness in you all...in my bluefamily...but what about my past? I couldn't change it...my past will be the most hurting thing...till the end
Darshan~
Tbc🌧️
"Sometimes we couldn't change what we want and past is one of them....you couldn't change it so remember to make this beautiful...so you will remember this till your last....♥️
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Poetry"A music-obsessed man faces immense struggles and tragedies throughout his life, but finds the true harmony he was looking for by finding his first love through the music that connects them. Follow him as he struggles with his troubled childhood, an...
