Just a Friend

Confession

Jennie POV

"Lisa...." I whispered thinking about last night, speaking of last night my eyes are still swollen from crying and thinking about Lisa. Lisa didn't go home and it really breaks my heart. "So this is what to feel being rejected.. Im sorry Lisa.." I said as i hugged the pillow beside me not wanting to cry anymore.

It was already 10am, I skipped the class today, Rose and Jisoo didn't even try to convince me to go with them, as they heard how i cried and no one of them can stop me from crying. I was really devastated thinking what happened between Lisa and Jungkook, I really want to go out and search for Lisa but the girls did not allow me to. I was so jealous I throw and break my phone when Lisa doesn't reply and answer my call, she even turned off her phone so I cant call her. I guess Im too late, too late to realize my feelings for her, too late to return my Love for her.

I was busy thinking when suddenly my doors slammed hard.. and there is Lisa, I cant described what too feel.. Im so happy seeing her but her face seems angry looking at me.

"Lisa.." I whispered then hurrily  stand on my bed, I really want to hug her right now.

"When will you stop playing me?" Lisa shouted as she slowly walking to me

"What?" I was confused

"You know what I mean, Jennie.." Lisa hold me on my arms harshly "Explain everything to me, Your message what does it mean? You also calling me, so late? You are making me crazy Jennie"

I bit my lower lips to stop my tears, I never thought that Lisa will burst into anger did I disturb them? "Lisa, Im sorry.." I said as my emotion eats me again and I cant control my tears

"And now your crying... " Lisa said as she let go of Jennie's arms, "I dont know what to do anymore.." Lisa added with her low tone now looking at Jennie she cant stay angry with her even for a short time.

Lisa sat on the corner of the bed.. looking down the floor. "First, I wanted to move on with this feelings but everytime I try, I keep coming back to you." Lisa sobs as her tears started to fall "I know you cant love me, but why you always playing with my feelings.. you keep me close, keep me notice all about you. But in the end you will just let me hanging with my feelings"

"Listen, Lisa.. Im not playing you" I said as i hold her chin to look at me. "I'm sorry if I made you think that way," I wipe Lisa's tears with my thumb "Last night, I really want you to go home and stay here, I dont want to see you with anyone specially that guy, I was afraid."

"Do you Love me?"Lisa asked looking straight to Jennie's eyes.

"You know how coward I am, I cant face the people who will judge me, I dont want to disappoint my Dad... I am afraid that...  that if I started to have feeling for you people will talk behind my back.. and.." I was cut off when Lisa talk

"Its fine I understand." Lisa smiled with a sad face "Do I need to be ashamed of my self? For being like this? To fall in love with my same kind?" Lisa wiped her tears again "I never fall in love to woman before until I met you." Lisa stands and walk towards the door.

Jennie holds Lisa's hand "Lisa, I never mean it that way.. why did you misunderstand everything that i say!" Lisa didn't look at me she is now sobbing and put her both hands on her face "Look let me finish first.. Listen Lisa please" I try to pat her back to stop from crying "Im sorry Lisa.. I do Love you, I know it was too late to realize.. Like Jisoo said im so unsure of my self.. maybe because i know you have feelings for me so Im feel comfortable that it wont change, but last night.. I was triggered seeing you dating someone, I only wanted you here with us, with..." 'me' jennie was cut off again when Lisa talk.

"I will stay with you guys until graduation," Lisa said then leave the room.

"Hey!" Jennie following Lisa "Whats with that I told you I love you right?"

"We cant have each other."Lisa replied still walking

"Who told you?...Please Listen you always cut me off" Jennie a little annoyed now. Lisa seems hard

Lisa stop and face Jennie "Listen to yourself Jennie, You are a coward who cant face anyone's judgement, afraid of your own father, Yes you can have me everytime you want..  but can I have you?" Lisa's voice a little different on the last line as if she os begging, she see no reaction on Jennie so she then walk away again but Jennie run back hugging her not letting her move. "What do you want Jennie Kim?"

"I Love you Lisa, Be my girlfriend?" Jennie push her face on Lisa's back.

"But as you said, Im a girl." lisa whispered

Jennie pulled Lisa to face her, "I dont care if you are, If you just let me end all what Im saying before, Lisa I dont really care about others, I only care about you.. you can have me as long as I have you"

"You know what? You talk too much when you only need to say is you Love me." Lisa whispered.

"Be my girlfriend Lisa, I dont accept no as an answer"

Lisa smiled and kiss Jennie on her lips as an answer. The kiss took a while then Jennie spoke

"Where did you sleep last night?" Jennie's eyes fuming with jealousy.

Lisa smirk, "I dont sleep, I spend the night thinking about your weird message"

"Tell me where did you spend your night thinking about me" Jennie asked again

"Hotel" Lisa said then walk Jennie to her room

"With him?" jennie shocked

"Ofcourse..... Not." Lisa smiled at Jennie "Did you know that you ruined my date last night when you message me and calling me non stop, I just excused my self to go home saying its emergency"

"Its good then, But why didn't you go home?"

"Because you are crazy!, and you are driving me crazy" Lisa rolled her eyes

"Whose more crazy? You or me?" Jennie ask as they both entered Lisa's Room

"Hmmm, Im crazy over you baby" Lisa push Jennie on the bed, and then joined her side by side.

Jennie smirk "You should buy me a new phone, My phone just broke last night because of you."

"Me?" Lisa confused then realized "I think you are more crazier over me"

"I am, so dont you date anyone  starting today, unless its me."Jennie embrace Lisa

Lisa also embraces Jennie, feeling her warmth she was so happy now finally Jennie admitted loving her. "Baby, I guess we sleep for now, Im really sleepy" Lisa look at Jennie who is now asleep "I Love you" she softly said then kiss Jennie's forehead.

END