𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚖𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚍𝚛𝚞𝚐

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Keyshawn wasn't in the bed when I woke up I had a bad headache because I was crying and I had taken more promethazine than ever in one night I woke up and took a shower and did my hygiene then walked into the living room.

seeing my cousin and my auntie sitting on the couch it looks like they had been waiting on me Dija how long have you been drinking it since I was 12 I said with tears coming down my face Dija why my cousin asked starting to cry. because I feel guilty about my mom's dead at this point I was sobbing and my dad telling me those words pushed me over the edge and the flashback were bad last night.

that's why I pulled out a bottle last night and I drank 2 bottles before I got in the car that's why I was so sleepy dija you have to stop those drugs can and will kill you. Auntie, it's the only way I can cope dija please I can't lose the only thing left I have of my sister I'm going to try to stop within the next few weeks auntie.

I have been drinking and smoking worse than I ever have in my life. My only problem is that I'm hiding it better. I haven't really talked to Keyshawn; I only see him when he gets into bed. We don't cuddle anymore, which has made my drinking worse. I know we're not together but he just went cold on me. I was bored, so I scrolled on Instagram until I found one of his posts.

K4gotglocks

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k4gotglocks man I still can't believe I'm somebody's dad out here this little girl has my whole heart thank you @fahari.Stewart for my whole heart daddy loves you Zuri F Jones

so I click on the baby mama page to see what she look like

fahari.Stewart

𝓻𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓼𝓮𝓮𝓷....𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝔀𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓮𝓭🌬

The nigga really has a whole family, but he hugged on me a few days ago. What am I doing? he's not my man, but damn that still hurt because I thought we had a little something, but then again I'm hella delusional after seeing that Fahari girl NGL I was upset and sad at the same time. He's not my man and we don't have anything going on It still hurts.

I lit my pre-rolled blunt I didn't even bother going outside I spark in the room while I was smoking I was rolling another blunt because why not and I was still feeling some sort of way. I got to get my cup and I went to the kitchen to get my ice then i went back to my room to get my purple drink out of my mini fridge that I hid in the back of the closet. Due to a plug back there, I used it to my advantage. I took my bottle and poured it over my ice and added a lit sprite. After drinking it down, I turned on the TV and watched Ginny & Georgia until I fell asleep.

I looked up at k4 asking why you were drinking and smoking again and I realized I hadn't cleaned it up. your Instagram post he looked confused my daughter? yes, I said softly ok dija what's wrong with that? why didn't you tell me the day we was hugged up on each other we fell asleep together I thought we had something going on even just a little something.

but the whole time you got a whole family dija me and my daughter mom and not together we just co-parent really good ain't no bad blood between us and dija and about the first day I was thinking my dick till I saw you were really cool people but you were going through a lot so I wanted to give you space.

I don't want space from you Keyshawn I'm delusional and gave me a little attention now I want you Keyshawn and I know we just met but I need to be able to call you bae that's it Keyshawn well do that just stop messing your body up dija your too pretty for that.

now how much of everything did you take I told him and he was a little bit disappointed but he understood why I was doing what I doing my life was hard but what always kept me going was my mama didn't die for me to be weak and give up on life there was always someone doing worse than me I always needed to be grateful for everything that I have.
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ok wow so K4 got a baby should dija meet baby Zuri?

damn so are k4 and dija locked in?

should start sum wit miss fahari or is that too messy

yall I be writing all these chapters in school every day the whole time I'm supposed to be doing work these 3 years need to hurry up school is kicking my ass ouu church

anyways how did I do😃?

love yall better say it back or I'm taking ya granny kneecaps n I'm not playing-𝓱𝓮𝓷𝓷𝓮𝓼𝓼𝔂💥

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