Falling apart ( Abhira)

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Next day,

Abhi's pov

I get up from sleep at 5 a.m and went to complete my morning routine. I looked at akshu for a second but at the another second I turned my gaze and move to the washroom. We have been lost in touch with each other since 1 year and it's really suffocating for me to stay in mansion with her as it always reminds me of previous incidents and tragedies which occurred in past months . I still need to go out from all this but it's becoming difficult for me to forgot all those things. I always use to get up early than her and moved to my office.

After 15 minutes I came out after talking bath and I was surprised with the view. I didn't found akshu on the bed. Shit ! Did she woke up early today?
I wear my formals , move down and got suprised with the breakfast today. So everyday I am going office by making breakfast on my own or maid used to do it for me then what is special today. I can cook for me she don't need to do all this.

I have many things to speak but still I kept quiet and move to the dining table to avoid any kind of  scene in morning. I am fed up from fighting with her too.

" Abhi see I cooked your favourite breakfast today" she said with smiling face

" Didn't you know I have stopped eating such oily things then why samosas and poori's  . "

I shouted and called my maid. She arrives.

" Didn't you tell her what kind of food I am eating nowadays"

" Sorry sir but she didn't ask me"  the maid stood there saying this

" Abhi please the samosas are baked and non oily. I have made all this with so much love . Let's do the breakfast" she said

" Akshu no one is going to eat all this. You are already suffering from illness and don't tell me you are going to eat all this in morning. You should eat healthy fruits and vegetables and maintain proper diet . For God sake I have no time running after doctors, stop being so careless"

I get up being angry, so these are the things which she is eating .Why can't she took her care by herself. Everytime I have to remind her for something. Enough is enough. I move to office with empty stomach.

Abhi 's pov end

Akshu's pov

I broke out into tears by listening his words . He really don't care about me anymore. I remember our old days when he forcefully made me eat breakfast no matter how much I deny and today he only taunts me of visiting doctors. It's Aaru who is taking me to my doctor Mrs . Sinha since 1 year. Abhi didn't checked my reports even and my health problems are just increasing day by day . From breathing problems to loose appetite I am suffering so much.  My drawer is full of medicines but only if he had look at all those things also I am not going to tell  him anything on my own.

Aaru woked up from sleep and look at everything on the table.

" Oh my God. This much tasty food in morning. Akshu tune banaya hai ye sab . Chal khate hai . Jaldi se kha le phir doctor ke paas Jana hai"

I stood there with blank expressions.
" Abhi told me that I can't eat these things. He is fed up running after doctors"

" Yeah right tujhe to healthy breakfast karna chahiye but don't worry kabhi kabhi se kuch nahi hota"

" No mujhe bhook nahi hai tu kha le" I stood away from there and move to kitchen to clean all the mess I have made. I listen to someone foot steps and looked back Aaru was there.

" Akshu don't stress yourself because of abhi's behaviour. Vo tujhe lekar concern tha tabhi to mana kiya vo khane ko or theek bhi kiya ab ham dono mil kar khatm kar sakte hai" she laughed only to made my mood but only if she knows that it's not working. Even I don't know what was the last time when I joked and laugh.

" Shut up Aaru I am not in a mood to joke"

" Acha sun vo bas upset hai tujhse thoda aaj kal . Tu to janti hai beech me kitna kuch hua even you have lost your baby just after 2 hours of birth , but things don't work like this you people's have to sit and discuss about all the problems"

" I don't want to discuss anything with him now . Mujhe Jo karna tha mai kar chuki hu aaru . This is only our fate"
I turned my face to hide my tears and ran to my room avoiding aaru.

At 2 p.m aaru forcefully made me eat lunch as we have to visit Dr. Sinha.
I told her it's of no use everytime I only get increased medicine and self care lecture but she didn't listen .

After 2 hours,
We returned back from the hospital and as expected she only gives me lecture and medicines. I rush and kept them in drawer.

At  nearly 11 p.m I listen abhi's car voice and rush towards the stairs only to have a look at him . Nowadays I barely see him.

I looked at abhi coming up with stairs. He spare a glance at me.  Thank God he notice my existence.

" Akshu . Am sorry for shouting at you in morning actually I was stressed because of business meeting"

" That's totally fine abhi . Am sorry for ruining your mood"

" Hmm have you visit Dr. Sinha today? What did she told ."

" Vo she said..."

Before I could answer him his phone rang.

" Oops I have to attend conference call right now. Excuse me"
He told me and went away without waiting for my answer. That's enough I am not going to tell him anything now. I can handle myself I don't need him anymore. I cried and again run to guest room sobbing under duvet what I usually do.

Aaru comes to me and pulled the duvet

" Akele kya ro rahi hai ye aasu ja kar abhi ko dikha. Akshu aise kuch nahi hoga you guys need proper communication. Tu abhi se baat karne ki koshish kar"

" Shut up Aaru ,He will never understand my pain which is just cause by his absence . You know last time   when I told him he said that I always complain and called me a drama queen. Let him work on his dream project for which he forget his wife completely "

" No akshu it's because he is still living in the past . You guys have to sought out all the misunderstandings between you both then only you can get your relationship progress "

" How can I talk to him Aaru he is not doing dinner even at home since past 2 months.  I don't know nowadays when our normal talk changes into arguments that is why I avoid talking to him much "

" Akshu again you both need to sought out all the misunderstandings before proper talk "

" I don't want to talk about all those things Aaru can't you understand " I shouted at her this time with sharp pain in my head .

" Akshu relax tu rest kar . Tujhe painkiller du?"

I nodded and took the painkiller

Abhi's pov

  I searched for my file in cupboard and found the picture of our baby who is no more. I took the picture in my hand and admired it with tears getting flashes from back. I remember how akshu blamed me for everything. may be she was right. I am the one responsible but only if she could understand my own reasons.

I took the picture back wiping my tears as soon as I saw akshu entering the room.

" Akshu what did Dr. Sinha said?"

" Nothing she told me I am fine" she replied to me in abrupt tone. I rolled my eyes and sat back on couch with the file.

To be continued