looking in to your eyes B

The lunchroom.

I wish I was in class sitting next to her, her presence is enough to make me squirm. me and her had this game where we would touch each other. I wish it wasn't a joke. as a touchy person I loved when she would touch me, give me the attention I crave too dearly. As having a boyfriend wasn't enough. in fact, he was enough, but he low-key sucked. as I've never had one, I don't know what I should do, I know myself values, and what I'm worth. I stand in line waiting to get food I watch as she walks past me and back to where she was sitting, I wait for Bella as I stand next to carmen, I was standing there a light, but hard push happens> shit! I fell over as if she was an angel, she catches me. where did she come from?? she was just sitting down. "So sorry Kiara are you alright?" "Yeah, I'm fine lily it's okay" and with what she said she walked off, her hair wavering her away, her smell from her hair lingered in the air. she walked to get a napkin and a fork.

 I felt like a dog following her sent. like a dirty dog I would have followed her, if she asked it would be done. her golden hair in my life was all I need. or so I thought.