real.

xion x leedo.

dongju and geonhak had just gotten back home from their graduation ceremony. it felt surreal, they both could've swore they were just in freshman year.
but, dongju had been feeling dizzy the whole day. he felt a bit nauseous too, and his friends said he looked pale.
as soon as geonhak unlocked the door, he walked to their room and laid on the bed. his diploma didn't even matter to him anymore, he just wanted to rest.
"are you okay, my love?" geonhak said, standing in the doorway.
dongju slowly nodded, wrapping himself in the blanket. "yeah..i just don't feel really good.."
geonhak walked closer to him and gently felt his forehead, frowning a little. "you have a fever, baby.."
"no biggie..maybe i just have a cold.." dongju smiled reassuringly, shivering a bit.
geonhak started to think of ways his boyfriend would catch a cold, but he couldn't think of any. no one was sick around them, before or after their graduation ceremony.
then his mind went back to a month ago, and he slowly realized what it could be.
"dongju-ah..are you vomiting? or nauseous?" he slowly managed to blurt out, his mind wandering off somewhere.
"i threw up last night..and the night before that..and i was nauseous today..but i haven't thrown up.." the younger boy replied, shivering a bit more in the bed.
"alright, baby..i'm gonna be right back. do you want any snacks?"
dongju quickly nodded, smiling brightly. "i want banana milk so bad, hakkie! andd..gummy worms! or gummy bears, i don't care which one."
geonhak smiled to himself. no matter how much time him and his boyfriend spent together, he never got enough of his smile. "alright, i'll be back."
he quickly changed into something more comfortable and put a beanie on, finishing up by putting his shoes on and walking out of the house.
dongju instantly felt more nauseous and gagged, knowing that if he didn't rush to the bathroom right then and there, he'd throw up all over the bed.
he quickly got up and ran to the bathroom, making it just in time and throwing up into the toilet.
he didn't know why he was so sick all of a sudden. he felt like crap, and it was worse than any sickness he had ever experienced before.
even the slightest hint of a scent would make him sick. he remembered earlier today, when he smelt his mother's perfume and almost puked. but he held himself together.
he sat next to the toilet and thought about what his illness could be. but he couldn't think of anyone being sick around him, not even his boyfriend.
whatever he was sick with, it was stronger than anything else. he ruled out having a cold, because it couldn't be this bad.
and then, he thought of pregnancy.
at first, he instantly ruled it out, but then he thought of a month ago, when him and geonhak didn't use protection.
he started to panic, thinking of what his boyfriend's reaction could be. thinking of what his parents' reaction could be.
he was only 18, and had college ahead of him. how would he attend college with a baby?
he was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't realize his boyfriend coming back home.
"baby, i got your snacks. but i need you to do something for me."
dongju quickly looked up, seeing his boyfriend in the doorway. "what is it..?"
geonhak slowly pulled three pregnancy tests out of the bag he was holding. "take these, okay? and don't freak out."
dongju slowly nodded, taking the tests from his boyfriend's hand. "i-i'll get my snacks after i'm done t-taking these.."
geonhak nodded and closed the bathroom door, giving his boyfriend some privacy. he then turned and walked to the dining room, putting the snacks on the table.
after 10 minutes, he heard the bathroom door open and quiet sobbing.
"dongju..?" he got up from the couch and walked over to his boyfriend, seeing the shorter brunette crying outside of the bathroom. "what's wrong, baby..? talk to me."
dongju slowly hugged his boyfriend, crying even more into his chest. "i-i'm..i'm pregnant, h-hakkie..all three o-of them...they're...positive.."
all geonhak could do was slowly rub dongju's back, in hopes that it would soothe him. he knew it was a possibility when he went to the store, but he didn't know how to react.
"c'mon..let's sit and talk.." the taller slowly whispered, bringing his boyfriend to the couch and sitting down with him.
"what do you wanna do?" he asked.
"i..i d-don't know..i..i've always w-wanted a baby..but..w-we're only 18, hakkie.."
"if you want to keep it, we'll figure something out. we have so many people that are willing to watch the baby for us while we have college." geonhak sighed, softly stroking dongju's hair. "and you don't have to immediately go to college, baby..you can wait until the pregnancy is over, and then start going.."
"b-but..i already had m-my future planned o-out..and..a baby..? that's gonna t-tear everything apart.." dongju nuzzled his head into his boyfriend's shoulder, sniffling quietly.
"everything in life can't be planned, love.." the taller said reassuringly, stroking his boyfriend's hair. "it's okay if one little thing slips out of place. and you know..the end result will be amazing. we'll be parents, ju.."
"hakkie.." dongju slowly looked up at the boy holding him. "i..i w-wanna keep it..but..a-are you ready for a baby..?"
"not completely..but i'm fine with keeping it.."
the smaller brunette smiled through his tears and nodded. "o-okay..we're..appa's now.."

[time skip to 9 months later]

"bye," geonhak said, leaving a gentle kiss on his boyfriend's head. "i'll see you when i get off."
dongju nodded and smiled a bit, feeling his baby move a little at the sound of his boyfriend's voice.
he was now 9 months pregnant, and could go into labor at any moment. he was scared, but also excited to finally meet his bundle of joy.
"if you start having any pain, call me. okay?" geonhak placed a hand on his boyfriend's swollen belly. he laughed a bit, feeling a kick.
"he kicked you?" dongju giggled softly, looking down at his belly.
"mhm..he's gonna love me, i can tell." the older male smiled and gently left a kiss on dongju's belly. "alright, i'll see you soon."
"bye..~"
after a few hours, dongju started to feel tightness in his abdomen. he then suddenly had to pee really bad, and rushed to the bathroom just to see a clear liquid come out of him. he gasped, realizing what it meant.
he grabbed his phone, dialing his boyfriend's number in a panic.
geonhak quickly answered, and dongju blurted out a mix of words.
"baby, slow down. i can't understand you." geonhak said softly.
"my..water..broke! but i'm not having contractions, i-it just broke!"
he suddenly felt a sharp pain in his belly and cried out uncontrollably.
"did you just have a contraction?" geonhak gathered all of his stuff, rushing out of his work building.
"i t-think.." dongju teared up a little, slowly realizing that it was time for a lot of pain.
"okay, i'll be there soon. in the meantime, try to call someone that can help you before i get there. it'll be at least 30 minutes.." geonhak sighed, getting into his car. "your mom isn't that far from us, right? try to call her."
"o-okay..i-i'll call her..h-hold on.." dongju hung up, quickly dialing his mom's number.
she answered after a few seconds, sounding like she was eating something. "i'm making kimchi, what's wrong?"
"c-contractions..and my w-water broke, and hak won't b-be here for another 30 m-minutes.." he heard a gasp from the other line.
"okay, i'll be there in a few..just don't move too much, it'll make it worse." his mom hung up the phone after a bit, and he got another contraction and gripped the toilet seat in pain.
"i-i'm never d-doing this again.." he said through heavy breaths.
after a painfully long couple of minutes, his mom unlocked the door and walked inside. "where are you, dongju?"
"in here..!" dongju called out from the bathroom.
his mother rushed over to the bathroom and opened the door. "how far apart are your contractions?"
"l-like..7 minutes..a-apart.."
"we need to get you to the hospital, then." she gently grabbed dongju's arm, helping him pull his pants up and walking him to her car.
"call geonhak and tell him to go to the hospital." she helped him into the passenger seat and closed the door, then getting into the driver's seat.
dongju writhed in pain, slowly grabbing his phone and clumsily pressing geonhak's contact. he called him, bringing his phone to his ear.
he was surprised that his boyfriend quickly answered, sounding like he was in a car.
"what's wrong, baby? do you feel like you have to push now?" leedo asked, trying to hide his worried tone but failing miserably.
"n-no..i called mom..and she's taking m-me to the hospital...so..g-go there..." dongju whined quietly, feeling another contraction.
he heard geonhak hum in agreement and hang up, leaving him to lean his head on the back of his seat and bear the pain.
after a grueling 20 minutes, they finally reaches the hospital and got dongju into a room.
the nurse checked how dilated he was, and it was almost time for him to deliver his baby.
after a painful hour, his son was finally here. he smiled weakly, hearing his baby cry while being taken to get cleaned off.
"are you okay?" dongju's thoughts were cut through with his boyfriend's voice, and he slowly looked over at him.
his vision started to get blurry, and he felt like he was floating.
"dongju?" every sound started to slowly fade away, and dongju lost consciousness.

dongju slowly woke up, recognizing that he was in a hospital bed. his breathing started to quicken, before he saw his boyfriend next to him, holding his son close to his chest.
"hak.." the weak brunette softly called, immediately grabbing attention from his boyfriend.
"you're awake.." geonhak gently put his hand on dongju's forehead. "how do you feel..?"
"so..so weak.." dongju leaned his head over to the side, closing his eyes slowly.
"do you wanna rest some more?" geonhak asked, looking down at his son, who was fast asleep in his arms.
dongju nodded, feeling like his limbs were the heaviest thing in the world. "please.."
and then he slept, for the next couple of hours. sometimes he heard his baby fussing, but it was immediately calmed down by his boyfriend.
he soon woke up to his mom by his side, with a lot of food next to him.
"mom..?" he weakly muttered, looking at all the food.
"you're awake!" his mom quickly grabbed his face, leaving kisses all over it.
dongju squirmed a bit and smiled. "hi, mom.."
his mom looked over at geonhak holding the baby and her face went to pure happiness. "he's so adorable!"
geonhak laughed softly. "i know, courtesy of me."

[i was tired of writing this since like april??? and decided to js cut it off cuz.. what else would i write]