This Love.

Prologue.

"Yea, I guess you could say we were irresistible. We went everywhere together, we did everything together. Our love was special. Everyone knew we were a couple, but only a couple people knew about us. We wanted to keep our relationship a secret, we didn't really like putting ourselves out on display, at least I didn't. I wasn't big on PDA, and didn't really like doing thing together in front of our friends. It seemed selfish. But, Sebastian was totally different. He loved to take me places." A smile creeped on my face of the remembrance of the love we had. "W-when we would drive around in the car, he would leave the top down. I always though it was because he wanted to show off. I was actually truly thankful for it because he wouldn't be able to see the goofy smile on my face when he turned Beyoncé's Crazy In Love on replay and would sing the words, more like scream the words," I gave out a little chuckle, " It made me laugh, it made me fall in love with him even more. My hair would be flying all over my face, I would laugh so hard, I could honestly cry." I touch the scare on my wrist. " I was so happy with him, he was my everything, at the time." I feel the tears coming, " I remember he told me that he wanted everyone to know I was his, I thought it was some jealousy stuff."

"Why would he be jealous?" the lady standing in front of me asked.

"My best friend, Cameron. Cam and I would hangout all the time, Sebastian hated that Cameron was a guy, he always thought I was cheating because I would stay over at Cam's house, and I would go on family vacations with him. Sebastian never liked that, he would say that I was ashamed of him, and that's why I didn't like to kiss in public. Which, totally wasn't true. I'm just not like that, I think a relationship should be private. He would tell me that i'm the reason he did all this, cause i didn't give him enough 'affection' when his parents divorced.  He would tell me that i wasn't good enough for him, i couldn't handle what he wanted from me. I was going to crack, and he wasn't going to be there to help me." The tear fell, I couldn't hold them back. Talking about what Sebastian and I had was so hard. I just miss him so much, i just wish we could start over so i wouldn't have made the mistakes i did. I would still have him if i would have just did what he asked, i would have still had him.... 

"Mia, could you tell me more about the relationship? " The woman sitting next to me asked. I looked up at her and nodded. I try to blink the tears away, but my eyes hurt from the swelling of my tears . I just wanted in go lay in bed and stare at my wall, that was the only place that made me feel safe. I couldn't sop shaking here, every bone in my body vibrated as i rocked back and forth in the chair, hoping that would keep people from noticing how bad i was shaking. 

I inhale a deep breathe, trying as hard as i can from crying again. I let out my long held breath, i look down at the palm of my hands and bite the inside of my cheeks, I look up and try to not look at him. I brush my hair back and breathe again, trying to calm myself. 

The woman siting next to me clears her throat, "How about you tell me about the beginning of the relationship?" She gives me a sympathetic smile and a nod, reassuring me that i can do this. 

I nod, pick up my water glass, but immediately put it back down. I was shaking way to much, and he would notice. The lady next to me stands up and comes over to me. She touches my shoulder and bends down.

She whispers to me, "Honey, i know you're nerves, but i need you to tell me everything. This is the only way we can keep you safe. I'm here, i won't let anything bad happen to you. Just breathe, take your time, you can do this!" She rubs my back as i nod. I wait for her to sit back down before i speak. 

"Well, we were in love...."