I feel like damaged goods.
I am lost and I have realized now that my life is not a fairytale and someone will not find me for me. I have to find myself and I have to figure out what it is that will make me feel better and be better. I have struggled time and time again and tripped over my own two feet.I thought I was building myself back up again but I wasn't. I have just been trying to find the pieces of me that I have lost along the way and I've made a mistake by trying to find that within anyone else besides myself.
I feel like damaged goods.
I have done terrible things to myself. I have done terrible things to the people that I love. I have done things that my younger self would be ashamed of. I know that I can't go back and do things differently. I know that it's too late. So now I question myself on what to do because I still want love and I still want happiness and I still want respect. I still want a life worth living. I feel so undeserving of these things because of what I've done and I can't help but think that anyone who knows everything about me will think that too.
I feel like damaged goods.
So how do I rebuild myself and make me feel whole again?
How can I find value in myself and be confident that I can bring value to another's life?
I don't want to be a devalued person because of my past. I want to be better because of it.
I challenge myself to do something new everyday for the next 30 days.
I challenge myself to help someone besides myself for the next 30 days.
I challenge myself to accomplish 10 things I have been putting off in fear or laziness.
I challenge myself to write and reflect on everyday for the next 30 days.
I hope by the end of this I will not feel like damaged goods and find value in myself. I hope to find my strengths. I hope to find peace.
