Looking Back

Chapter 5

Previously in chapter 4: 

Nini receives an invitation to her high school reunion and feels a mix of emotions. She talks to 

her Fiancé , Brian, who encourages her to go. She gets ready for the reunion and sees her old 

friends, including her ex-boyfriend, Ricky. They catch up on each other's lives and Ricky admits 

he never stopped loving her. However, she tells him she is engaged, and he accepts it. As he 

walks away, she feels disappointed but knows she made the right decision.

Chapter 5. 

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. The high school reunion was just a 

distant memory, and life had resumed its normal routine. I was getting married to Brian in a few 

weeks and I couldn't be any happier or was I just convincing myself? 

when Ricky confessed he still had feelings for me, I wanted to tell him too but to be honest I 

didn't know what to do. what was I going to say to Brian. Despite my love for Brian, I couldn't 

shake off the feeling that something was missing in our relationship. We had been together for 

five years, and while he was a great guy, I couldn't help but feel like we were drifting apart. I 

found myself thinking about Ricky more often than I should have been, wondering what our life 

could have been like if we had ended up together. I tried to push these thoughts aside and focus 

on our wedding, but it felt like something was holding me back. 

One night, as Brian and I were getting ready for bed, he turned to me and said, "Nini, I know 

something's been bothering you lately. Is there anything you want to talk about?"

I hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to respond. But then, the words came tumbling out of 

my mouth before I could stop them. "Brian, I don't know if I'm ready to get married. I'm really 

sorry. 

Brian's face fell as he processed what I had just said. He took a deep breath before speaking. "Is 

this about Ricky?"

I was taken aback by his question. "What do you mean?" I asked.

"After I picked you up after the reunion, I saw the way you looked at him when you parted ways," 

he said. "I knew something was up. After that night, you weren't yourself again. Look, Nini, I love 

you more than anything, but if you're not sure about us, then maybe it's better if we end things 

now." 

I felt a knot form in my stomach as I listened to Brian's words. I knew deep down that he was 

right, but it didn't make the situation any easier. 

"I'll always love you and cherish the moments we shared together for a lifetime because you 

were my first love, but I can't expect the same in return if I am not one of yours." he continued. I 

understand, first loves are impossible to forget, but if he makes you more happier, than I dont 

want to stay in your way. " he concluded. 

Tears streamed down my face as I looked into Brian's eyes. I knew he was hurting, but he was 

handling the situation with so much maturity and grace.

"I'm so sorry, Brian," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. "I never meant to hurt you. I love 

you, but  I need to figure things out."

Brian nodded, and there was a sense of finality in his eyes. "I understand, Nini," he said, his voice 

breaking slightly. "I just hope you find what you're looking for, Nini. You deserve nothing but the 

best," he whispered.

"I'll always love you," Brian said softly, as he held me one last time. "Take care of yourself, Nini."

"I will," I replied, trying to keep the tears at bay. "Thank you for everything, Brian."

As Brian got ready to sleep in the other room, I stopped him and gave him one last kiss. It was 

bittersweet, knowing that this would be the last time we would be together like this. We had 

shared so many memories and experiences, and I knew that I would always cherish those 

moments. so I asked him one last time if we can spend the night together, just cuddling and 

holding each other.

Brian nodded, and we lay down on the bed, wrapped in each other's arms. We didn't say much, 

but the silence was comforting. It felt like we were both trying to hold onto something that was 

slipping away.

As we fell asleep, I knew that tomorrow would bring a new chapter in my life. A chapter that 

would be filled with uncertainty and questions, but also with hope and the possibility of finding 

what I truly wanted. And as I drifted off, with Brian's arms around me, I felt a sense of peace 

wash over me. I knew that whatever the future held, I would face it with strength and courage, 

and with the love and support of the people who mattered most to me.