Demons

Chapter One

A/N: This is a small one shot which was inspired by the Imagine Dragon song Demons. It's my idea of what might have happened with Christian after Ana left. In this, they've been apart for four days. Enjoy!

"This reminded me of a happy time.", I repeat for the thousandth time. In my hand is the model glider kit which I found on Ana's bed, the bed she slept in during her stay here in my ivory tower. I set the box on to the nightstand and collapse my body on to the mattress. Her scent is still on the sheets. Jasmine. I inhale that delectable scent, wishing I could bottle it up and carry it around with me. At least having the slighest reminder of her might help with the grief I'm feeling. Fuck, who I am kidding? It would only make me feel worse if that's even possible. Ordinarily, people grieve when a loved one dies. There is no death here, yet there's loss. It's the greatest loss I've ever felt which is ironic for a man who once claimed to never being able to feel. That was before Ana literally fell into my life. I tried to tell her and especially myself that I was no good for her, yet my yearning for her couldn't be denied. I needed her. Being the selfish monster that I was, I convinced her to be with me, wanting her to be my sub even though she continually wanted me.

"I don't do romance. It's not part of who I am.", I told her after she asked about us going on a proper date. Of course this was before I finally agreed to give it a try.

"I don't believe that. You keep telling me that you're not capable of these things, but I know there's more to you than you claim. You just need to knock down those barricades around your heart.", she said. Her hands start going towards my chest, but my reflexes are too fast and stop her.

"There aren't any barricades around my heart because there's no heart.""You have a heart. Maybe you haven't believed it, but it's there, buried deep within you. The sooner you realize that, the sooner you can truly be happy."

That was one of several conversations Ana and I in regards to her believing I was a better person. Over time, I had moments where I thought she might be right. In turn, I could possibly be capable of being the kind of guy she wanted, one who would take her out on actual dates, hold hands, etc. When she went to Georgia to see her mother, I missed her so much that I flew across the country to see her.

"What are you doing here?", she asked with bewildering eyes.

"I came to see you." I brushed a piece of hair away from her beautiful face and smiled."Why though?""Because I was missing you. Ana, you've enchanted me in a way that's scary and exciting at the same time. I'm going to try to give you more.", I replied as her face radiated like the sun.

Georgia was everything I had hoped it would be. Ana and I grew closer with each second. Unfortunately, the call came that woke me up. Leila, one of my former subs, had gotten into my apartment and begged Gail, my housekeeper, to let her see me. Gail tried to tell her that I wasn't home and wouldn't be for a while, but Leila was acting erratic. She started saying how she needed me and how we should be together. Then she snapped and grabbed a knife which she used to cut her wrist. Gail went to call for an ambulance, but when she returned, Leila was gone. I hated to cut my time with Ana short, but I needed to get back to Seattle to find out what was going on with Leila. When I first met Leila, she was a vibrant and happy young woman. She was also a good submissive, but over time, Leila started changing. The relationship we had wasn't enough. She asked if there was a chance for us to have more, but I said no. It wasn't until I met Ana that I truly wanted to be more with a woman. I ended my contract with Leila, and she found love and got married. The marriage ended, but she found a new love who tragically died.