Suicidal Angel // Ayato x Thoma

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(More angst 🙂)

-Blood(Self-Harm)

Thoma was in his room, in the comfort of his own home. He lied down, trying to rest himself. His stomach kept making noises, but he had just eaten, so it couldn't have been that he was hungry. His body felt sore, like he just ran a whole mile.

Who knew that one death of somebody who bullies him would affect him this much? This was a huge impact to his life. Perhaps it was when Thoma realized that he couldn't see that person anymore, ever.

The blondie just doesn't like the sounds of death. He felt haunted, like if this was somehow his fault. Thoma rolled onto his side, looking over at the family photo perched on his table side desk. He sighed.

I need to use the restroom. Thoma got up, and walked out of his room to the bathroom.

Once he got in there, he pushed the door close. Well.. almost closed, the door was cracked open a bit. After he did his business, he stared at himself in the mirror.

Thoma looked in the medicine cabinet, and found what looked like a sharp object. In curiosity, he grabbed it, and it appeared to be a razor used for shaving. Must have been his fathers. "Hm."

He turned it around and looked at it. Out of his subconscious, he held the sharp blade to his wrist, staring at it with an expressionless face.

"Hm?" He suddenly got pulled out of his subconscious, lifting the blade off his skin. What am I doing?

He tried to process what his body wanted to do, looking at the mirror, hand on the counter and the hand holding the razor on top of it. I wouldn't cut myself purposely. That's wrong.

"Thoma!" His mother called.

Thoma yelped, getting startled by the suddenly shout of his name. When he jumped, the blade slashed his inner wrist. His winced, muttering out a small noise of pain. "Uh, yeah?" He covered his wrist, putting the razor on the counter.

"Yoimiya just dropped off your homework, I'm going to put it in your room." Mei-Ying said. "She also said that there's an assignment you need to do online."

"Okay!" Thoma looked at the blood that dripped on the ground. That's a lot.. The cut was a little deep, because the razor is so sharp. It'll definitely leave a scar.

Thoma cleaned up and bandaged his wound. I'll have to wear long sleeves, then. he thought.

He peered over at the razor. Thoma had some weird thoughts in his mind. For some reason, the razor didn't hurt that badly. After getting cut, the pain disappeared about 2 seconds after.

His subconscious made him grab the razor for the second time..

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Thoma walked to his room after doing whatever it was he was doing in the bathroom. He sat down on his bed and looked at the work he had. "Huh, that's a little more than I expected.."

There was a couple packets, and a single paper.

His phone rang again. It seems Yoimiya was texting him more. He looked at the notifications.

Yoimiya

i just got home
sorry for all the work

It's fine! I have plenty of
time to do it over the weekend

we should hang out sometime
over the weekend :)