lynix
my mom walked in my room and hugged me right away.
"mom, why did this have to happen to me?" I asked trying not to cry but failing miserably.
"I don't know, Winnie"
"mom!! I told you not to call me that!"
Winnie was a nick name my dad gave me before he died. he gave it to me because I loved watching Winnie the Pooh when I was little.
"I'm sorry"
yup I'm sure you are
"it's fine" i lie
even the fake smiles I couldn't do they were even to much of a smile for me.
I have astrocytoma, 'its a tumor that arises from the star-shaped cells (astrocytes) that form the supportive tissue of the brain. Other supportive cells of the brain include oligodendrocytes and ependymal cells.'
my mom finally left my room. I thought of a good idea a bucket list. things I want to do before I you know, am not living anymore.
1. eat something you can't pronounce.
2. go skydiving.
3. swim with dolphins
4. go on a colour run
5. hold an eagle
6. go on a hike
7. buy a dog
8. go to the zoo
9. do a cover of a song
10. bake a cake
11. have a Harry Potter marathon
12. get a Ouija board
13. meet Taylor swift
14. meet 5sos
15. go kart racing
16. road trip to the beach
17. water balloon fight
18. ride a horse
19. meet ed sheeran
20. meet chandler Riggs (bc he Bae)
21. paint fight
22. go camping
23. go swimming
24. paris
25. kiss in the rain
26. last kiss.
Paris would have been the last because I've been dying to go to Paris for a long time. but a girl can only dream about kissing someone in the rain before they die.
lia came in my room and sat next to me.
"hey lia" I tried to smile.
"hey nix, what's that?" she pointed to my bucket list.
"it's my bucket list"
"you're not going to die nix"
"..and, it doesn't mean I don't have to have one, you know just in case"
she nodded.
"well I'm going to bed it's really late, love you nix"
"I love you too lia goodnight."
I laid down and covered up in my blanket and got cozy.
