I never thought I would write this to you
I never imagined feeling this for you
We were two friends getting to know each other
Now we cant even have a conversation with each other
When did your courtesy stop?
Was it me who gave you doubts?
When did this moment happen?
You didn't use to make my eyes brighten
And now look at me
Writing this poem without knowing if you will read it
You gave me attention that I never had
You made me feel protected, what else can I ask?
Even though I always pretend to distract that idea from myself
Denying that idea from my brain
The memories couldn't help but to fell
I enjoyed being playful with you
Our stickers, our flirting, simply being around you
The words you said to me, the respect you had for me
You couldn't even say a cuss word near me
Step by step i kept noticing but pushing it
So dumbly i made you loose it
Till the point that you gave up on me
I couldn't look at your eyes before
Your gaze made me shivered
And now that you don't feel it
I could spend the whole day seeing them
The whole summer felt like an eternity
Your name on my phone a fantasy
Dreaming of the day to come
To get to know that you weren't alone
Where did all the time go?
Don't you remember the things that we did before?
It was a game i know
But what i know too is that you felt something for me too
The last day that you say goodbye
That hugged lasted in my heart for a while
And that's when my confusing thoughts start
And i couldnt kick you out of my mind
I always wondered why we sparked together
But no spark by chat whatsoever
What were your fears?
Was it me, my age or our friendship?
I wish you could give me infinite hugs
Like the one that you shaked all of me at once
I don't want to say goodbye
To the idea i had about us
But its hurting myself
The fact that i don't understand
Why don't we keep the obstacles aside
And tell each other what we feel
With no pressure with no pride
I thought that i could wait
That i would see you falling for me again
But apparently that's not on your brain
And you just want to distract yourself and forget
What if I made this whole thing up?
That you never liked me or saw me like that
All the moments that i thought about that
And i always ended up crying and sad
What did you do to me?
Why am I writing this right here?
Sometimes i like you but sometimes i hate you too
I always think that i don't see myself dating you
But what's inside me that keeps feeling like this?
Every time I walked at night
Singing that song
being outside with the cold
Having extremely hope
And ended up going home alone
While the times that destiny wanted us to cross
It was always me looking bad and gross
How can you want to see someone but you dont?
How can you want to hug him so tight but you shouldnt?
What if his hugs are the best ones you have ever received?
But you cant just have his arms around you like it was supposed to be?
How come are you seeing other girls but not me
Did you ever feel something for me
Why would you do this to me?
If all i think about is you before i sleep
