Faded Scars

Scar 2

"Girl, sama ka na." Sabi ni Erol sakin. Yung bakla kong kaibigan. And probably my only friend.

"You know I can't, Rolie." I said while giving him an exasperated look. Nakita ko yung mga itsura ng kaibigan niya na parang naiinip na sa delay ko.

He pouted. "But girl, lagi ka nalang work-bahay. Try to live naman."

"Matagal na akong patay, Rol." He rolled his eyes. "Girl, pag may problema, just ring my phone. M'kay? Una na ako, ha? Stop the dramas. Love lots!" Then he went with his friends.

I sighed.

I want to. I swear. But, I can't. I can't get attached again. Nothing is permanent.

Sooner or later, he'll end up like one of them. Mga taong iiwan ka lang sa ere.

Sumakay ako sa fx pauwi ng makita ko ang dalawang highschool couple sa harap ko.

'Walang forever.' Sabi ko sa isipan ko.

Tumingin nalang ako sa labas ng bintana while I listened to his song.

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I sighed again. Pang sampu na yatang buntong-hininga 'to e.

You're barely waking,

And I'm tangled up in you, yeah.

Sa lahat ng kanta niya, I can say na ito ang pinakagusto ko. Everytime na panghihinaan ako ng loob, eto ang pinakikinggan ko. It gives me hope. And he and hope itself is the reason why I still agree on surviving in this world.

I still hope that maybe...

Maybe I can still meet him.

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Nilagay ko ang bag ko sa ibabaw ng coffee table. Umakyat ako sa kwarto ko to take a shower.

While I let my food simmer, I can't help but to think how empty this house is.

Pumupunta rin naman yung cleaner dito once a while, but still...it's not enough.

To escape the saddening thoughts, I opened the T.V. Saktong pagbukas nun ay ang interview sakanya. My heart race as I watch intently.

God, he's so gorgeous.

It was an interview about their upcoming world tour. He's in a band. And sila lang ang bandang kinahuhumalingan ko. Ever since that day.