Diary of Eternity

Chapter 1

There are many ways of how a person reacts after losing memories of themselves, they become dumb or they become alerted at everything. As a person losing the memories of herself, it was frustrating because no one explained anything to her about herself, maybe they wanted her to figure it out by herself, did they think she wouldn't trust them? Maybe.

She did what Dan said, not because she wanted to but because she felt like it was what was needed to do. Hiding in the blue cabinet, she found a secret door, she kicked the door open despite being in a small place. "Alright, let's see what's here." She spoke in a hasty voice. Behind the secret door was a room, a decently decorated room with its every wall covered in collection of novels, despite having a neat study table and a bed that already looks comfy what caught her eye was a wall that was the only that did not have books on it, instead there were picture frames, she recognized these faces. On the upper right was a square picture frame which showed their President, Siam, a cute looking girl, their secretary and their muse. The five were showing off their ice cream while on their background it was raining hard. And there was a sticky not attached to it, "Who cares if it's raining? We're Filipinos!" -President. The note made Siam giggle, On the upper left was a photo of Siam holding a boba tea, on her left was an adorable boy smiling amusingly at the camera while their prince charming/escort was the who took the photo, this one didn't have a note. On the center was a picture of their Top 1, Josh, Andreah, Dan, the adorable boy from earlier. They were all smiling as they showed their burgers, on the background was a mirror where the reflection of the photographer was seen, it was their prince charming trying to get a better angle. With a sticky note, "Future Photographer?" - Unknown. The pictures truly made Siam feel special in some way, she felt like she was happier before. The smile on their face made her feel warm. She turned around to sit on her bed but a certain box caught her eye, she bent down beside her bed and reached for the box, she opened it to see a notebook, a very thick one almost as thick as those novels around the room. She was about to open the book when she finally read the title cover, Siam's Lovely Diary. A sudden chilling feeling washed over her, it was her diary, another way to find out about herself! As she was about to open the diary, a knock was heard. She hid the diary under a pillow and opened the door. It was, once again, Josh. He was smiling at her, sourly. "Do you need something, Josh?" He didn't answer but looked around instead. He almost looked like he inspected her room, "Josh?" He finally snapped back to reality and spoke, "Sorry, it's my first time seeing your room, that's all. In the past, you really keep everything personal, especially your room. And now... It's surprising since I didn't expect so many books. And..." His sentence stopped, she turned to the spot that caught his eye, it was the wall of pictures. She knew what he was looking at, he was looking at the photo frame on the center where our Top 1's face was clear and beautiful. Even though there was almost thirty four pictures on that wall, the center was the largest, the upper right and left were the second largest. His gaze was locked on the center picture frame, he truly misses her. "Do you want to have a closer look?" He nodded. Siam led him close to the photo and there, he went emotional. Andreah used to be so happy back then... Robert used to hang out with us and... man, we were so happy back then. I miss her, I miss them." He looked at the small portrait on top of the large picture frame, it was a picture of Josh, Dan, the two Ralphs, Kurt, CS, Rudyn, their vice president and all the rest of the boys, they were smiling, and their happy faces made Josh recall the past memories, not all of them were happy, some felt tragic but it was part of life. Siam could see the sadness in his eyes but he didn't cry or tried to show it, he just... stared. Even though she was trying to learn about herself, she felt like was learning more about him rather than about herself, their silence became awkward but she decided to break it, "So about my memories. I just want to know, my age. My everything." Josh was surprised for a sec but then nodded at her with a sweet smile, this smile made her cheeks red, she thought it was adorable, she led him to her study table and told him to sit while she sits on her bed since he didn't want to sit on her bed. "Well, your full name is 'Siam Marie Angel ####' you are '1#' years old' and you are a female!" He smiled, again. "I know I'm a girl, Josh, maybe on what you've observed on what I was?" He nodded again, "Well, in class you are usually quiet but in chat you're... how do I say this... different? Yeah, like that and that you had a crush on a female and that you became heartbroken more than two times, maybe." He laughed awkwardly, "This is usually not like me." He muttered. He looked at his watch and stood up rapidly, "Sorry, I have to go, I have to make sure Blanche didn't burn the cookies! Bye, see you later!" He dashed out of the room and left Siam in a awkward situation, 'Heartbroken? Crush on the same gender as herself? Different in chat?!' She could bear the embarrassment she felt. She sighed and took the diary, cautiously, she opened the first page.

Dear Diary,

Today, I managed to pass on my English test! Again! And the best part is that I recieved a congrats message from my bbf and from him. Yeah, you know who I'm talking about. I can't believe he actually sent me that message! Does he have no shame?! Anyways, that's all I can write for today! Better finish writing this chapter soon~

She read the first page over and over again , she could not believe her eyes, this was her? The real her? Her mouth was wide open. She held the diary when she heard a sudden scream, she screeched in horror, the scream was scary, it felt so merciless. Full of interest, she opened the door of the room she was in, she followed where the scream from, though she felt scared she wanted to know. A short boy, with a hair colored misty blue with a shade of indigo held a knife in his hand, his eyes sharpened in amusement as he gazed on her, Siam felt like she was going to get killed too but he ignored her and dragged the body outside the kitchen, the face of the victim was unrecognizable, how horrible and traumatizing it was. She ran to the bathroom to vomit but a void of smoke cornered her. And then, she was back, the haunted-looking classroom was back, the chairs were on the same position, she was on the same posing when she first woke up. And this time, there was someone with her, someone familiar, someone ridiculously handsome.