you are in a dark tunnel. the only source of light is the lamps above you. you keep walking, until you don't even know how you ended up there. how do you suddenly find yourself in that dark tunnel? you've been in it for so long that you don't even remember where it started. should you come back that didn't even occur to you. you are going to gamble. you walk forward, you go down that dark road unaware of how lost you will be.
you will lose yourself, your thoughts will wander and you will no longer be aware of reality. you will continue to walk, maybe out of habit, you are losing hope for a way out, but you still have it.
at the end of the tunnel there may be a chasm, and there may be a way out of that hell. there is no one, you are completely alone. the loneliness and sadness you feel are indescribable, you feel as if a knife has been pierced through your heart. there were many tears, there are no more. where are you? somewhere. somewhere in that mystical tunnel, away from everyone. actually, maybe you are not further from everyone, you don't know. you are closed. you feel like you're in a maze, but with only one direction. you don't have the option to go left or right. but only forward or backward. it sounds simple, but it is not easy.
ask yourself, who are you doing this for? for whom are you tiring yourself through this terrible tunnel that has already caused you a lot of trouble? You have been in it for so long that it is too late to turn back, while you continue straight without knowing if there is a way out.
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my thoughts
Actioncertain sentences that I wrote in my diary. mostly they are sad sentences with profound and suicidal thoughts. (i apologize in case of any grammar mistakes, English is not my native language)
