Authors note: Alright..I already have 58 reads and that makes me super happy! Thanks everyone for reading, it means a lot to me! I'm also going to start a new story about One Direction, so please read that! Anyways, on with the story!
~Tiny
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Jessica's pov
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Glaring up at Jackson, I fell to my knees in front of Damien. "Are you alright Damien?" Worry sounded in my voice, and my voice slightly cracked.
I heard Jackson snort from behind me, and everything went silent. I hated that Jackson would do that to Damien, what is the reason to? Was he jealous? Did he just plain hate Damien? Was he friends with Candy?
Blocking out my thoughts, I stood and pushed Jackson away. "What the hell!?" I started punching his chest repeatedly. The sad, or maybe even best part, was that Jackson let me continue to punch him, as if he wanted to feel the pain, or that he didn't want to hurt me.
After a good 2-5 minutes I was tired, and I stopped punching him, but glared at him with sharp eyes. "Answer me.." Silence.. "God damn it answer me!" I yelled.
Jackson grabbed my wrists, and pulled me towards him. "Jessica..you have to ne'er stand I can't tell you why I did that.." I let out a humorless laugh. "You can't tell me? Is that what you just said? And why can't you exactly..tell me?" My voice was angry and raised as I pulled my arms away with a strong force.
He was very quiet, as if debating on wether what to say. "I just can't.." it sounded like a whimper, and that almost hurt me to listen to. "Well you better tell me fast or else I will never speak to you again, you understand me?" He nodded slowly, and took a deep breath. "I guess I'm just..jealous.." He said with no confidence. "Of what?" He looked me in the eyes and grabbed ahold of my hands, which was surprisingly soft and gentle yet strong. "Damien..haven't you ever loved someone but they just reject you? Where you just feel so torn and hurt? That you just want to run away and cry?" Memories flashed back to the guy that I once liked at my old school, right before I moved here. "Well..ya..what the hell are you getting at?" Jackson scratched his neck, looking so nervous as if it was between life and death if he said something wrong. "I like you..Jessica, I like you a lot!" That hit me with a force, just those words 'I like you a lot' was enough to make me feel weak.
My eyes widened and I started to back away, and then turned and sprinted as fast as I could out the doors and to where I don't even know.
I just kept running, and running. I didn't know where to go at a time like this! My brother was probably at home, while my mother at work. My dad(being the alcoholic and abusive person he is) is probably at a bar.
I know what your thinking, why would my mother stay with a man like THAT?! Well, my mother was blinded with her 'love' for that man too much to notice how he treats us!
[-Flashback-]
I was around 7, playing with Barbies and singing while playing house, like a normal little kid would do. I could hear my dad humming, at this time he was a nice father, like a normal father should be. BAM! BAM! BAM! I heard my father knocking over a few things while coming to my room, I didn't know he was drunk! It was only 2'o clock in the afternoon!
He came into my room, smiling like a crazy person. "Hello daddy!" I said cheerfully. Like I said, I was 7 so I didn't know what drunk even was! "Hey darling..having FUN?" He said, making fun sound louder. I nodded happily. "May I play with you? We can play house!" He said in a fake happy voice. I nodded, grinning. "Yes!" I handed him a male Barbie. "Alright, so I will be the boyfriend and you will be the girlfriend. Alright?" I nodded.
I made my Barbie walk into the doll house and smiled down at the doll. His doll walked in and over to my doll. "Hey honey!" He said in his voice that was supposed to be the doll. "Hello!" I said back. His doll walked over(him playing it) and hugged my Barbie, in which I made my Barbie hug back. "Honey, do you want to have babies?" I giggled lowly. "Why, yes my dear! I would LOVE to have babies!" At this time I didn't know how to make babies(I didn't know about sex or whatever) and I didn't know what was going to happen. "Great!" And with that my dad stood. I looked at him confused, "Daddy? Aren't we going to play anymore?" I asked sadly. "Yes we are honey, but instead of playing Barbies we will play real house. With us." This sounded exciting to me so I nodded and stood up. "Let's do that scene again, alright?" My father asked, which I happily said yes to.
I ran out of the room and walked in slowly, pretending to be the girlfriend. He walked over to my and hugged me. "Hello honey!" He said into my ear. "Hello!" I said grinning at him. "Honey, do you want to have babies?" He asked gently. I nodded, "Yes! Of course!" And with that my father picked me up, shut the door, locked it and threw me on my bed. He ripped off my clothes, and I didn't know what to do! He took of his clothes and hovered over me. "Ready honey?" I was beyond frightened, so I simply nodded. And well..he raped me.
[-End of Flashback-]
I ran to the park and sat down on the bench, resting my head in my hands as I breathed slowly. I wasn't ready to go back home, to a brother that was most likely fucking a girl right now, and then my mother come home, and my dad come home drunk and abusive. Worst part is, my mother never sticks up for me! And neither does my brother.
My dad only abuses me, and my little sister. Sad, she is only 4 and I wanted her to have a rather..happy childhood that I never got. As soon as I turned 18 I was moving out and getting custody of my little sister and living with her.
Sorry it is so short);
I didn't have a lot of time and I am having a major writing block!
I know what I want to happen..but I have no idea how to lead up to it! O.O
Can someone help?
