When i first met you i didnt know how much you were going to mean to me,
i assumed you'd only be in my life for a short period of time then eventually leave me like everyone else,
I didn't know anything about you,
To be honest i actually thought the worst of you,
i thought you were a right bitch.
I remember sitting next to you for the first time and wondering why you looked at me like i was a evil fucking bitch.
I didn't understand you at the time.
You always had a sunny vibe raidiating off of you like two otters playing with a beachball.
You seemed to carefree back then,
You looked happy.
I dont know whats happened since then or whats caused you to become who you've become now
But that doesn't mean i dont love you.
I see your face, when you try to eat something.
I know your shits and giggles and jokes are all just built up pain.
I may not
entierly undertsand what your going through,
But it doesnt mean i cant see straight through all the bullshit.
I know you better than i know myself.
And to be honest i dont know myself very well,
But i do know that you aren't doing well.
But i miss you.
I dont know why i miss you,
i talk to you almost every day,
But i miss the time when neither of us gave a shit about oursleves and our biggest probelm were the popular girls in our school.
I need you in my life lou, your the only person that makes sense to me, and the only one i can just never seem to get annoyed with.
I love your stupid little random ass autistic sounding noises you make
And although, yes, they're annoying, they're what i love about you.
I know weve had our ups and downs and our little goofy ahh spats but i dont give a singular peice of crap about them anymore.
I care about you too much for my own good and ik sometimes it may not seem like it but i promise i do,
I just dont always know how to show it.
Im proud of you lou, in all honesty, i dont want you to change okay.
( stop fucking wonking at me)
-Lola
