Raised by wolfstar

OCTOBER 1981

Sirius heart stopped, laying  in front of him was his brother, James cold and lifeless. This couldn't be real, this wasn't happening it was just a bad dream, like the ones he's be suffering from all his life, no way was this happening he wouldn't let it.  He slowly lowered his self to ground shaking all the way, he reached out a trembling hand to feel James wrist. Nothing. No No NO NO COME ON JAMES this isn't happening he screamed, shaking frantically at his still body. Please he whimpered as he collapsed in a heap next to him.

He shot up suddenly, something had snapped him out of this trance he had fallen into, a loud sickening cried echoed from upstair, his mind going into over drive he rush up. Harry, what was Harry doing he, shit he had just stupidly fucking stupidly assumed Lily and Harry had got out but NO. Has he round the corridor to Harry's nursery he's heart once again dropped so low he felt as if it had fallen right through him.  A pool of ginger hair was what he saw first spread out on the ground, Lilly's dead body lying there cold. Her beautiful green eyes staring up at him. To her left Harrys crib where Oh oh oh Harry he called, as Harry was sat crying his little hart out calling for his mother. Sirius scooped him up in his arms cradling his head shielding him from the sight of his mother. He slowly reluctantly left the room. He was meet with another figure at the bottom of the stairs someone he need all to well.

Dumbledore.

"Sirius" he spoke with a tone of sombre by his words one sirius had never really heard his headmaster use before.
He couldn't look at him, his eyes kept moving to the hall
"Sirius im so sorry but i need you to listen" he placed a hand on his shoulder. "It is with the up most importance that we get Harry out of here you understand"
Sirius nodded
"I want to take him to his aunt and uncles in private drive"
Sirius suddenly snapped back into reality, not those people no he wouldn't let it.
"NO" he shot back "no not threes people, please" his brain still working at a million mile per second said the first thing he could think "me and remus will look after him"
Dumbledore didn't look to confident on this
"Please im his godfather, It's my responsibility"
Still hesitant Dumbledore nodded "very well... but go now Sirius its isn't safe here"

He didn't want to leave he wanted to stay her with James, because he knew once he left that would be it he would be gone. But he felt Harry move in his arms, and with one last look towards his dear brother he deapparated.

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He landed heavily into the sitting room of the flat he shared his Remus, Remus of course was nowhere to found it was a full moon and he was off in some wood, Sirius didn't know where. The truth is they had been having some issues, Sirius had be convinced that Remus was the traitor and as much as it had pained him to believe it it pained him even more to find out he was wrong and all these weeks of distance he had put between all the pain he had caused Remus was for nothing.
Right now he just felt numb, pain had consumed him so much that he felt nothing. His worst fear had come true.

He got up off the fall and check over Harry for injures, he seemed fine however he had a small lighting bolt shaped cut on his forehead which he new for a fact hadn't been there before tonight.  He cradled his in his arms rocking him slowly side to side, Harry had calmed down and was no longer crying as much.
About 40 mins had past before he finally fell asleep in his arms. Slowly lowering him on the sofa he made his way to the kitchen, he poured himself a glass of water hen his eyes moved to the firewiskey bottle on top of the fridge. No he can't he has a child in there that needs him. So he returned to the sitting room and waited, waited for Remus to return.

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About 5am the door flung open and a disheveled looking remus hobbled in looking very worst for where, he blearily look toward the living room when Sirius saw the panic in his eyes when he spotted the lump of Harry on the sofa.
He rushed over toward them.

"What, what, why... sirius why is he here"
Sirius looked up the pain already consuming him
"Remus, i, um.." he stuttered he couldn't bring himself to say it.
Taking in a deep breath he explained to his lost looking partner.

Remus collapsed to the ground by the end, sobbing hysterically raw emotions echoing around the silent room.
Sirius watched on, that numb feeling returning.
Remus after a while heaved himself up onto the sofa next to the sleeping Harry, bringing to child into his arms. Sirius mind closer and garbed Harrys hand never wanting to let go