It was Saturday. Johnny and I were cozied up on the sofa in my apartment drinking coffee. We loved spending time with each other, just the two of us, without any distraction.
Realizing I forgot to put sugar in Johnny's coffee, I wanted to get up from the sofa. "Sorry, let me just quickly go get some sug-" I said as I got up but quickly sat back down again as I felt dizzy and breathed out slowly. "Honey, you okay?" Johnny immediately asked looking concerned.
Shit, that's a sign of low iron. I always have that right before I get my period. I blushed at the thought of having to tell Johnny. I gave him a quick kiss on his cheek saying I'm fine and walked to the kitchen, relieved to have escaped the situation.
Johnny's never experienced me having my period and honestly, good for him. I'm always at my worst physically and emotionally at this time of the month. Even while I was looking for the sugar and couldn't find it, I started getting annoyed and sighed.
"What's all that sighing about?" Johnny chuckled after a while, walking in my direction. "Can't find the sugar." I mumbled annoyed still looking through all the cupboards. "Oh, don't worry, it's just sugar. Let's go back, come on" he said softly reaching for my hand. Instead, I just huffed and walked past him, leaving him behind clearly confused at my behavior. I instantly felt sorry after my bitchy move and just wanted to cry. "Just choose anything to watch, I'll be back in a second" I mumbled turning on the TV as I fought back tears.
In the bathroom I quickly put on a pad to be prepared and looked at myself in the mirror. My skin looked terrible, I should've known my period's coming. Now I didn't only feel ugly, I also looked like it. I quickly splashed my face with some cold water and breathed in and out deciding to apologize to Johnny. It hurts me how I just treated him like shit when he was loving and soft towards me, as he always is.
Johnny was smiling at me shyly when I sat back on the sofa. I could tell he wanted to give me space. He must think he had done something wrong. "Oh Johnny...I'm sorry for before. It wasn't okay of me to treat you like that. I just..." I couldn't tell him about my period. I just couldn't say it out loud. I felt so ashamed. "I just didn't sleep well and then I end up being annoyed at the smallest things. You didn't do anything wrong. I am sorry." I quietly apologized looking into his puppy eyes. He tilted his head smiling softly, then embracing me with both arms. "I completely understand that, sweetheart. Why didn't you tell me though? You know I won't judge you, whatever it is. Next time something's up, just let me know, okay?" He said, holding me close.
I felt like shit. Not only because of my period starting but also because I was lying to him. I would eventually have to tell him about it, I couldn't hide it forever. But now is not the right moment, I would die from embarrassment.
I nodded my head and we started watching TV while lying in eachothers arms. After some time Johnny shuffled and laid his head on my chest. Normally I don't mind this but of course at the moment my whole body was extremely sensitive and it actually hurt having his head on my chest. I couldn't help but let out a quiet groan and shuffled a bit to readjust his head which was now on my stomach. Great. As if that doesn't hurt.
"Everything alright up there?" Johnny smirked as he kept facing the TV. His hand went on my knee stroking it slightly. Then he moved his head from my stomach placing soft kisses on my thighs. I could see a slight bulge in his pants. Oh shit, no. I'm CLEARLY not in the mood for this.
"No, Johnny.." I said quietly shuffling awkwardly in my place. He kept placing kisses though, gripping my thigh by now. "Hmm..such beautiful thighs.." was the only thing he mumbled as he kept going. "Johnny.." I whimpered realizing how sensitive my body was, grabbing his hand. His other hand now went up my body to touch my breast through my shirt. "OW! No, stop!" I cried out and he immediately stopped.
