a friend's story 🌛

3/confused...

My eyes didn't want to close at all
That night.....

" My friend hello!!""

"Oh sorry cozbi I just lost Concentration....."

"Oh you know Iam your best friend I surely will support you if you had a problem"

Maybe I should tell cozbi... after all she is my best friend and I don't think she would be like mom......

" Well um this.....""i choked
what what happened I feel my throat it is going out of me my breath and my eyes and my heart it hurts I feel like Iam dizzy,my heart is beating......" I feel my heart" came straight to my head like it was a lighting that shocked my head I couldn't talk I just sat there scared for my life while cozbi was confused why do I feel like in her point of view she only saw me choke nothing else how?!?! I almost died.................

"Oh Iam sorry well I just can't find my cat it had lost And I am so sad about it honestly.."

"Iam so sorry vida... I would have loved to help you but you know I have work today"

"No no it's okay me and my whole family are searching for it "I said of course lying

"Well I have to go now vida let's talk later bye bestie......"my best friend said to me Before she left

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"I feel my heart
It ripped apart" why did it feel like this so much
Like crazy
Maybe it's a curse
There is no way , curses aren't real
........ Or are they.......
.......
And why couldn't I tell my best friend

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*The same night after she went home*

Regret regret regret is such a word that never entered my dictionary when I used to be a kid

But now I regret every moment I had sat down and read
I regret how painful it was
How disgusting it felt
I wish I hadn't read that page
Nor that poem
I feel scared of everyone
And everything
It surely is a curse
definitely..............

What should I do? Should I read the rest of the paper...... I honestly think no but I cannot
This papers.grab.my.feelings
Truly grab them......

I will read the next page only
Only

"Friends are good ,humans are good , fears are good, happiness is good,love is good and self is known , look at the names
feel.them.
understand.them.
And smile after you known
.... because it turly will be missing..... Surly it will be missed......."

" What does this mean I hate not knowing..... "I yelled because I was upset

Wait under the writtens
Under the ink
At the very bottom of the paper
It is number twelve
So this paper is number twelve wait what about the others...........

The poem one (the second one) we had read doesn't have a number...........

But the first one it was number. 3...............

I have to understand this today........
.