Anxiety.

Intro

Her name was Alex,she used to sit next to me in Biology class.
I wasn't shocked if I have to be honest...I often think about why so many people are shocked.Then I realize; they aren't shocked because she isn't here anymore,they are shocked because they never even't notice she was here. I noticed and I wondered what words she'd speak if she decided to talk. In all the 6 months I used to sit right next her,I never heard her voice.I dreamed of her and I imagined a honey sweet voice who sounded like the prettiest melody and who felt like coming home. I knew that whenever she decided to speak that I would listen to her...I would listen for hours.
I remember looking at her,she wouldn't give away much emotions. Even when people were making fun of her she would pretend that she didn't hear them but I know she did. I also know what it did to her...it would only give her less reasons to say something.
So she never did...I remember how much it hurt just to see her that way. She never let us see but I felt it. I felt how hurt she truly was and I cared. I swear to God I cared and there was nothing in this world that I cared more for than to know who she really was.