yours (machinegunkelly)

Chapter 3

(emilys pov)
it's been a week staying at colsons and about a week of me and him dating and I won't lie I'm scared of being his girlfriend because he might cheat on me and really hurt me. I don't wanna lose him, we've been best friends forever and now we are dating. I really think it'll be easier to be friends with benefits but I don't know how he'll take it.

I was laying in bed wide awake not one hour of sleep. I've stayed up another night thinking about me and him. He woke up and saw I was still awake. And he cut my thoughts off.

"baby you're still up?", "yea sorry", he pouted at me and rolled over on top of me, "don't be sorry but what's keeping you up", i didn't wanna tell him what the thoughts I was having so I just pushed him off me, "it's nothing I'll just try to fall asleep", I rolled over with my back facing him, I felt him get up from the bed and he came to my side to face me.

"talk to me trust me it'll help", I sat up and he was on his knees looking up at me, "I'm scared", he looked at me confused, "what are you scared of", I was looking down fidgeting with my fingers in my lap, colson grabbed my hands and stood up pulling me up to stand too. "it's okay whatever it is I'll understand I promise", "okay but don't be mad. I keep on thinking you'll hurt me by cheating or whatever and sometimes I think it'll be easier and better if we were friends with benefits. But I like this, I like being yours and I don't wanna ruin that by pushing you away or something. I love you colson but I'm scared whats gonna happen. you might leave me you might cheat on me you might take you anger out on m-", he shut me up by kissing me, he pulled away after a minute.

"baby I could never hurt you or leave you and I especially would never take my anger out on you. I love you today tomorrow and forever", he gave me another kiss on my forehead. "I love you too". we layed back down in bed and once my head hit his chest I was out like a light and so was he.
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(next day) emilys pov still in bed
I woke up to a empty bed and the smell of bacon and weed. I got up and went to the bathroom and put my hair in a messy bun. Then I walked downstairs to colson cooking breakfast with a blunt in his mouth. I hugged him by his waist and took the blunt and inhaled some of the smoke myself.

he turned around and had this cute dumb look on him.

"what", I said smirking trying not to laugh. "babe that's mine", "so was my virginity", his jaw dropped and he was trying not to smile but wasn't very good at it. "that's not fair", I gave him a kiss and pouted before walking away. "aw what the fuck get back here", he chased me around the house until I smelled something burning. "COLSON THE FOOD", I heard him whisper "shit" under his breath. he turned the stove off before there was a fire and threw away the burnt bacon.

"that was your fault", "fuck you, you're the one who stole my blunt", "asshole", I whispered but was still loud enough for colson to hear me. I walked back upstairs to take a shower since I felt nasty.

when I got in the bathroom I started the shower for it to warm up while I undress. I hopped in the shower with colsons music blasting and it was my favorite song half naked & almost famous. I heard the bathroom door open and saw colson in the corner of my eye, I could tell he was undressing to hop in with me. "babe I can see you stupid", he got in and held my waist while looking down into my eyes. "now it's our first time to take a shower together and maybe have sex in the shower", I smacked his tattooed covered chest, "nooo sex I'm trying to shower". "maybe not today but definitely one day we will be having sex in the shower", "and if I say no that one day?", "then I guess you won't be taking a shower that day", "you're such a dick", I turned around and grabbed the shampoo then started washing my hair.

"sorry if I am I just love my sex", "yea I know I've been friends with you before you even lost your virginity, you're obsessed", "is that a bad thing", I turned back around, "actually yea sometimes it is", he looked pissed after I said that, "fuck you bitch, if you don't like the fact that I love sex then you can just leave my house", he got out of the shower and slammed the bathroom door.

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After being in the shower crying for about an hour I got out and got dressed. I went back in the bedroom and layed down. Colson wasn't home not that I'm surprised he always runs off when he gets pissed, it's honestly so fucking annoying I don't know how I can still put up with him.

I was laying down for about 20 minutes until I heard the front door slam and some things falling over. I got up and went downstairs. It was colson making out with some girl, looking like they were about to fuck. I couldn't stand watching them, i couldn't stand colson breaking my heart like this.

I ran upstairs and slammed the bedroom door and started packing all my stuff up. I was struggling finding everything because of how much I was crying, I was bailing my eyes out. I finally got my shit packed. I went back downstairs and walked passed colson and that girl but colson noticed me about to leave so he pushed the girl away and grabbed my wrist.

"let me go", "no please don't leave I'm sorry", I pushed colson off of me and ran outside. I was going to walk home since my car was broken down. Colson ran outside and saw me then walked over. "at least let me give you a ride", it didn't even seem like he cared that I was leaving, "fine".

I got in his car and so did he. I looked out the window instead him I couldn't stand looking at him not now not ever especially after he cheated on me.

"I'm sorry", I ignored him. He drove off. "emily please don't hate me, you and me both kinda figured this couple thing wouldn't have worked anyways so I don't understand why you're so upset", I looked over at him, "stop the car", "why", "colson please stop the fucking car, I cannot stand being any where near you right now", he stopped the car. "please emily don't hate me", "fuck you colson baker, I actually wanted to try this out but obviously you are just so much of a asshole you won't even try it out with your best friend actually I've been your only friend until slim", he looked down, I got out of the car and walked home.

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so sorry guys for not updating this one!!! I love u!! EST4LIFE!