Diaries

Diary Entry 1.

Hi Diary its me Emmi. Age 13. Date: August 11 2002.
It's just another one of those days where I really can't be arsed. I cleaned the pigs as that just seems to be my only purpose at the moment. I should be happy really but all I can think about is the work I have to do to get to the place I wanna be and that's really quite daunting.
You know. I never really know what to do or what to feel or to say for that matter. I guess there's just this floatyness that's around me all the time and I just kind of go along without thinking about the future. I just wanna stay here. In the now. In the present. In the comfort of knowing that my Mum is there to catch me when I fall. I have a house to come home to and food to eat. And not have to worry about those things but one day I know that I have to go out. Into the world. And I'll have to worry about those things.
But for the now. I'll settle. I'll stay.