Mr.clown

Chapter 16

Jungkook took the old photo from Jhope's hand. They had took it in front of the circus one fine day. Every circus workers was there including him. A young boy standing beside Mr.kim with a huge smile on his face. His grip on the photo tightened. Just one photo triggered a hundreds of memories. Memories where he was happy and lively. That time of his life where everything was fine. Where he had a family to call his own. Where he was filled with love and dreams.

Jhope : everything I got to know about you was written here..my grandpa...seemed to be very fond of you Jungkook. He was proud of you and I recognised you the very moment you came in front of me. I was shocked. After all even so many years you still look same as in the photo. After I came to my senses I collected myself. I joined the dots and although it seemed impossible to believe. I made myself accept you were..not a human being. Even if my belief was just going to be temporary. But after listening to your reality everything is clear and everything make sense. I....I....I am extremely sorry Jungkook

Jungkook didn't reply. He still had his gaze stuck on the photo

Jhope : I need to ask what did you do to all these people...? What's happening in the circus..? How did everything closed down suddenly..?

JUNGKOOK  : I DID EVERYTHING. I MADE THEM MY AUDIENCE

He closed the diary and looked at Jhope

JUNGKOOK : BEFORE TAKING CARE OF THAT MONSTER I MADE HIM RETURN EVERYTHING HE HAD BOUGHT WITH HIS FILTHY MONEY. THEN I CHASED AND KILLED EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM WHO HAD HURT MY PEOPLE AND WHO BURNT ME TO ASHES...LOOK I STILL SMELL LIKE GASOLINE AND PETROL..IT TOOK ME SOME TIME BUT AT LAST AS MY FINAL TARGET WAS THE OWNER OF THIS CIRCUS.  I KILLED HIM. HE HAD TO PAY. HE WAS A PART OF IT. AFTER DOING SO I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WILL GET BACK TO NORMAL. SOMEONE NEW WILL OPEN THE CIRCUS AGAIN. MY FAMILY WILL GET THEIR JOB BACK. NO ONE WILL FORCE THEM TO LEAVE EVER AGAIN. BUT NOT EVERYTHING GOES AS PLANNED , DOES IT...?
THE AMUSEMENT PARK OPENED AGAIN. BUT THE NEW OWNER DIDN'T BOTHER TO REOPEN OUR CURCUS. HE MUST HAVE THOUGHT, IT WONT DO MUCH PROFIT WITH THE TIME AS PEOPLE GET MORE INTERESTED IN OTHER THINGS THAN OLD CIRCUS. TIME WENT BY. I WAITED..I WAITED EVERYDAY AND NIGHT. HOPING THEY WILL SOMEHOW CHANGE THEIR MIND AND OPEN THE CIRCUS. BUT NOTHING HAPPENED. DAYS TURNED TO WEEKS AND WEEKS TURNED TO MONTHS AND MONTHS TURNED TO YEARS. NO ONE CARED. I USED TO STAY INSIDE THE CIRCUS AND WATCH ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CAME IN THE AMUSEMENT PARK. I RECOGNISES SOME..THEY USED TO BE A PART OF MY AUDIENCE BUT EVEN THEY DIDN'T SEEM TO CARE. THEY WERE ENJOYING OTHER THINGS. THEY FORGOT ABOUT ME. THEY FORGOT ABOUT THE CIRCUS. IT STARTED TO MAKE ME FEEL THE WORSE, I WAS BLINDED WITH RAGE....
I STARTED TO MALFUNCTION THE RIDES..MAKE THE PEOPLE LEAVE BY MAKING THEM SICK AND SO ON..
HOW COULD THEY EASILY ABANDON US...?
EVENTUALLY,  THE ENTIRE AMUSEMENT PARK CLOSED DOWN AND GOT ABANDONED, JUST LIKE THEY HAD DONE TO THIS CIRCUS. I CANT DISAPPEAR LIKE OTHER SOULS YET. SO I STAYED HERE ALL ALONE FOR TEN LONG YEARS. NO ONE TO TALK TO...NO ONE TO CALL MY OWN..NO ONE TO SHOW MY TRICKS TO..NO ONE TO APPLAUSE...NO ONE TO SHARE MY DREAM WITH..AND THE WORSE OF ALL, I NEVER KNEW WHAT OTHERS WERE DOING...I ALWAYS HOPED THEY WERE DOING WELL..STILL DO..THIS CIRCUS WAS ALL MINE TO OWN BUT ALWAYS SO EMPTY AND QUIET. BUT THEN ONE DAY AFTER 10 LONELT YEARS OUT 9F MY EXPECTATIONS SOMEONE CAME...SOMEONE CAME TO MY CIRCUS..I WATCHED HER ENTER MY ABANDONED PLACE WITB CURIOUS EYES. I WAS TOO STUNNED AT FIRST THINKING HOW AND WHY DID SHE CAME TO MY CIRCUS . I STOOD FAR BUT SLOWLY WENT CLOSER TO HER. SHE COULDN'T SEE ME BUT I COULD WATCH HER WALKING AROUND AND LOOKING AT EVERYTHING..." PRETTY GIRL" THOSE WERE THE  FIRST WORDS SLIPPED OUT OF MY LIPS AFTER DECADES AND TO MY UTTER SURPRISE SHE LOOKED TOWARDS MY DIRECTION BUT NOT DIRECTLY AT ME. I COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE HEARD ME. SHE LOOKED TERRIFIED. I WAS AMUSED BY EVERYTHING.
BUT SECONDS LATER SHE TURNED AROUND AND STARTED TO LEAVE ...I SIMPLY DIDNT WANTED HER TO LEAVE ME ALL ALONE AGAIN. SO I MADE HER STAY. YOU SEE THAT GIRL IN THE FRONT ROW...? THATS HER...FIRST PERSO  TO BE MY VERY OWN AUDIENCE...AFTER SOME TIME MORE AND MORE PEOPLE STARTED TO COME. I GUESS THEY WANTED TO EXPLORE THE ABANDONED PLACE

I WAS NO LONGER ALONE
I AM NO LONGER ALONE

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