We Never Go Out of Style

Chapter 4

Kyles POV

I get up from my bed, and I check my phone as soon as I got up from bed. ITS 4AM? I WOKE UP THIS EARLY? WHAT THE HELL.

I'm actually pretty tired, last night all I was doing was just overthinking stuff, but i'm really not gonna get into that yet. Today is Stans final football game of the season, and also my last time performing in band.

I'm actually pretty excited for next year, i'm gonna do soccer and it's gonna be pretty fun. It's just i'm pretty sure Kenny and Cartman are mad at me, and i'm fifty percent sure that Stan is also mad at me.

I feel bad, he left football for me, for our friend group. He joined band, and I just left band.

I think we are on sort of good terms, yesterday he was sort of strange, but almost every single class I had with him, i just caught him staring at me, then just quickly turning back around when I looked at him.

Is there anything wrong with me?

Well whatever, other than that. Summer is right around the corner, there is rarely any snow left here at South Park. We are all about to enter Spring Break.

These past 2 days, i've been hanging out with Tolkien and Clyde, and you know what, you get what i'm saying. I've been hanging out with that friend group, for these past 2 days, and it is pretty chill I can say.

I've been mostly talking with Tolkien and Wendy.

Me and Tolkien used to be really good friends, so I get why we are friends again.

Me and Wendy just instantly connected.

Although most of the time I usually talk to Tolkien. I really only talk to Wendy in class and during lunch, but I still consider her as a pretty good friend.

Well, with the rest of the group. I guess i'm friends with them, just not as close as I am with Tolkien and Wendy.

Wendy thinks I have a crush on Rebecca, and has been really bugging me about it. It's sort of annoying but I let it slide, since you know, she doesn't know i'm gay.

I kinda wish I had someone to talk to about it, but I really don't. People would probably just consider me as a freak or something. So I just have to hide the fact that i'm gay.

I'm trying to hide the fact i'm gay, by trying to get with Rebecca. She's coming to school next year, so that pretty much gives me a chance.

Maybe this will help me stop being gay, and let me have more of an interest in girls.

Wendy gave me her phone number and everything, but I just haven't texted her at all so.

I really wanna try to hang out with Stan, Kenny and Cartman. But I feel like guilty. The one i'm most comfortable to be talking to is pretty much Stan.

Yesterday he wasn't sitting with Kenny and Cartman. He was sitting with Craig and Tweek. I wonder what that could be about.

Well I mean theres nothing to do, as much as I want to apologize. They are most likely not going to forgive me, so there really is no point in trying. I just have to continue hanging out with this new group that i'm in.

Well, now it's 4:07. I'm just gonna start getting ready for school since, I really don't have a choice and I cannot fall back asleep.

I brush my teeth, and I decide to wear my matching sweater that Stan wore yesterday.

On the back of my sweater it said Tool Shed, with a few tools next to it, along with a heart. My sweater was green.
In front of my sweater, it had SBF on the side, embroidered in the upper corner of the sweater.