"Y'know...people suck anyways...why live anymore.." He says as he gets his rope ready. Not a single thought is processing when his life is flashing before his eyes. He ties the noose to the ceiling and stands on the chair. "Shit the letter.." He said as he gets down and writes his mom.
Dear Mom,
I want to start off by saying that I love you more than words can express. You have been my rock, my confidant, and my source of constant love and support. I never want you to doubt that.
I know this may come as a shock to you, but I have been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for a long time. It's not your fault, and I don't want you to blame yourself. You have always been the best mother anyone could ask for, and I am so grateful for everything you have done for me.
But the truth is, I have been in so much pain and I can't take it anymore. I have tried everything to make it go away, but I just feel like there's no escape from it. I am exhausted, both mentally and physically, and I can't keep fighting this battle anymore.
Please don't think that this decision was made lightly. I have thought about it for a long time, and I truly believe that this is the best and only option for me. I just can't bear the thought of living like this for one more day.
I am sorry for the pain and sadness that this will cause you and our family. I know you will have so many questions and I wish I could answer them for you, but I just can't. Just know that I am at peace with my decision and I hope that someday, you will be too.
I will always be with you, in your memories and in your heart. Remember the good times we shared, and know that I will always love you, no matter what. Please take care of yourself and find happiness in your life.
Goodbye, mom. I will miss you more than anything.
Love always, Alen...
