My other half (complete)

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I am so hurt and upset I dont know what to do. I mean I have to plaster a fake smile on my face to get my job done. and I put on an act when Abel is around so he doesn't get brought into the mix.

Whenever Abel goes to be I go and sleep on the couch. When Jax tries to get me to talk to him or come to bed with him I won't do it. I am so torn between the feeling deep down inside me telling me that he had fucked Tara and was just telling me he didn't do it so I'd not hurt her. & my heart telling him to trust him that he didn't cheat on me with her. 

this feeling got me to the point I almost wound up in the hospital. I had gone to the doctor after dropping Abel off at school and my blood pressure was ridiculously high and when asked what was wrong I had told them I'm dealing with so much stress.

so my doctor ran some tests before she had me wait there for a bit to see if my blood pressure would clam down any.

when she came back she told me that I was pregnant and that if I don't lose the stress I'll loose my baby.

I asked what all could she recommend or give me. she gave me some suggestions that would help then she told me some things that could help with my blood pressure.

She had given me medication to help and the wouldn't effect my baby.

 after I had left the doctor I headed home and took a nap. when I woke I seen endless missed calls from Jax and some from Gemma

I called Gemma.

"Are you ok darling Jackson is pacing over here?" she asked

" honestly no. I had just left my doctor and she didn't like seeing how high my blood pressure is. she came close to admitting me due to it. but opted instead to give me something for it." I say

"is it what had happened that day you brought Abel over?" she asked

"yeah. that's the reason" I tell her

"awe. baby I'm sorry" she says

"is she okay? is she home?" I hear

"want me to tell him?" she asked

"you can. I'm gonna lay back down and try to destress or something" I say

"I'll pick up Abel and watch him for a few nights" she says

"that's fine" I say

"Yes she is home no she isnt okay. " Gemma says

 I could hear her about to say something but with the sound of running Jax didn't give her a change to continue.

"he's heading home. so I'll talk to you later" she says

"okay. bye Gemma" I say

"bye darling" she says

After we hang up I sigh and laid back down after placing my phone on the bedside table.

I knew it was only a matter of time before Jax arrives home and barge in asking questions. so while I had the peace and quiet I was gonna enjoy it.

the sound of a bike or two could be heard and I knew he was getting closer. I went to wash my face before I headed out to the living room where I sat on the couch and laid back waiting for him and whoever came with him to come in.