My Last Summer of You

Chapter 02

The memories came back over and over again, every time I'd closed my eyes my weakness comes next. Am I really that bad person who left my pregnant girlfriend alone and choose to go away and runaway to nowhere? I admit am I, but the stress of being a young father and off the cut to being one really drowning me into my deppest nightmare.

First thing I saw after I open my eyes is the green pair of eyes looking straight on mine, and the thin line of his rosy lips send me a pityful looks.

"Are you okay? seems like you had a nightmare." He spoke, his smooth tone makes his question audible. I stared at him for a long seconds after he waved his hand on my face and then I realized I'm such an idiot who looking at him like a statue.

"Sorry, did I scare you?" I asked instead, probably you would ask me why I came up with this question. Maybe because everyone is scared by my aura, they once said that I'm about to attack like a lion just by my who knows look. Beasty I guess?

He smile shyly. "No, not exactly. But I should ask you the same question, are you okay?" Once again his anomorous eyes.

I feel anxious talking back to him, I don't know why. But I'm kinda feel feazed. This is not appropriate for me to be feazed my vocabulary didn't include this word, except when I'm in front of my girlfriend and dad.

"I'm fine, absolutely fine." I replied rubbing my fingers on the back of my head.
"Did you have a nightmare? I'm little bit confused when you randomly saying something about sophia girl."

I wonder why I sounded like when I'm talking in my sleep, Sophia indeed my nightmares. She is my beloved one, but also she could be my ultimate battle in life. Since I left the apartment while she sleep calmly the nightmares hunting me in my sleep.

I can't rest for a longer than four hours, she wakes me up my sleep, and leaving a marks of regrets inside my mind. Maybe I deserved it, maybe I deserved not to sleep after all.

"It's normal for me to have that nightmare, just don't mind what I'm saying in my sleep. Not a big deal at all." I force myself to look like I'm smiling, I wish he could fall for my best acting skills and the bravery of my face.

"Okay." He shortly said, and turned his head looking outside the window.

The beautiful scenery outside catches by my hurtful eyes, it didn't help me to feel happy it pushing me more to felt the scars that left me home. Did I mess my life so bad? This is beyond my expectations, this is not what I expected. Preparing for college is beyond running away into nowhere.

"Where are you going from?" I break the silence.

He didn't turn his head to look at me, he just answer my question with a weary sound. "I'm going to Wyoming." He answered simple.

"You have a family there?"

"No, I will be living there alone." He replied.

He turned his head this time and throw me a question. "How about you, your going somewhere?" He asked.

It's my turn to avoid his glare and look at the outside. "Honestly I'm lost." I said.

"What do you mean lost?, Wait are you in a wrong train?"

"Yes, it is because someone snatched my varsity jacket as well as my wallet and he ride this train luckily I catched the guy and here am I now." I hope he get what I'm saying.

He nod but after a seconds he quickly scan the varsity jacket on his lap, and for my laughing portend he slap his face with his both palms. Redness of his ears revealed that his embarrassed.

"Oh my god, I'm such an embarrassing idiot right now. I'm so sorry." He murmured and still hiding his face.

"It's alright." I tried to smooth it down but it's his ego came up and settle his mistake. Earlier I'm mad about this guy who snatch or probably steal my jacket on purpose, but when I saw who's this guy somewhat I feel reassure because something in his appearance remarked that it just an accident and talking to him now is genuine.