Overdose [Addicted Series]

Chapter 19

Skylar's POV

It's a strange feeling being numb.

Nothing, and I mean nothing effects you.

I'll wake up in the middle of the night and not care, sleep until dinner time? Oh well.

Miss work and forget to call out, my bad.

Not eat for days, not worried about it.

I feel....

Nothing.

The past few days have gone by and it's like I've been watching myself from the side lines. Waiting for me to fall apart and yet... here I am still waiting.

Even when his name pops up on my phone, I stare waiting for the pain to set in my chest like it has before and yet, nothing.

I stare and stare watching it ring until the screen goes black and I see the lifeless eyes of mine staring back at me.

Like I said, numb.

I look in the mirror, waiting to recognize my reflection yet all I see is an empty shell of a girl who looks just like me. There's no life left in my eyes, and right now I just don't care to find it.

"Next!"

I move forward in the line, the barista smiles at me, "hey Skylar! Same order?"

"Yup, same order."

Her smiles widens, "coming right up!"

Why is she so happy? She works in a coffee shop?

I make my way to a window booth and sit down, my body deflating into the cushioned bench and stare. Staring, it's what I've gotten good at the last few days.

Staring out windows... staring at my phone or my work computer... staring at people ... it's all I do.

So here I am, staring out a cafe window watching people living their life as if my life didn't just completely and utterly shatter days before after it was striped away from me.

"Here you go Skylar."

My usual order is placed in front of me by the overly happy barista who looks maybe sixteen.

"Thanks." My voice comes out raspy and dry, given that I've barely spoken the last few days I'm surprised I have a voice.

The coffee smells amazing and I'm sure it tastes amazing. Yet? Here I am staring at it wrapped up tightly in my hands.

"It won't drink itself you know."

A female voice pulls me from my trans and I look up to see a older woman with dark curly hair smiling at me, "excuse me?"

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to intrude but, I'm Crystal? I met you maybe a few weeks ago, your.... Shoot I'm so sorry sweetheart I forget your name."

"Skylar."

She snaps, "right! Skylar! I wanted to come and say hi but needed I suppose an awkward way of doing it. How are you? How's your New Years going?" Her voice is full of sincerity.

My mind comes up with a hundred sarcastic answers for that question,

Just peachy! My boyfriend whose no longer my boyfriend cheated on me and then went and posted with the girl he cheated on me with just because he saw a video of me happy!

Wonderful! I'm living my life for my father who resents me because when I was eight my mother died in a car accident when she came to pick me up!

It's amazing! I work for my aunt in a job I hate and lost my dream internship because of the boyfriend I fell in love with but surprise! He never loved me!