Can't Trust Him // Larry AU

Chapter 1 - Lightheaded

(A/N -  ahhh first chapter!! hope you enjoy!)

(p.s. anything in this chapter that has these { } around to means it's a dream or a thought) 

(TW:  self-harm)

*harrys pov*

{I saw the love of my life standing infront of me. Those beautiful sky blue eyes. He pushed me into bed when I heard- BEEP BEEP BEEEEEP} 

I groaned as I awoke from my good dream. I tiredly slapped my alarm clock. As I was thinking about my dream about Louis, it's like he walked in on cue. 

"Hey beautiful," Louis said in his cute but sassy way. 

"Hey honey," I said tiredly. "What're we doing today," I said as I sat up with a growing pain in my head. I started to feel more giant but decided it not tell Louis.

"The boys said we have rehearsals, song sesh, and then 3 concerts. It's crazy." 

Louis then began to tell me a story about his day so far, I just shrugged and nodded my head. 

"-and then. oh wait harol- hazz I didn't see the time. go shower and get ready love." 

He thankfully left the room. I stumbled over to the bathroom and open the cabinet to see if we had any medicine. I sighed as there was only kids IBProfeun. 

I groaned as I almost fell over the loose tile ont he floor. Slowly undressing I see my thighs. As I counted the new and old scars on my legs. 

1. 2. 3.- 9. 10. 11. 12.  12. 12  scars on my legs. I've been clean for about a week. I'm so glad Louis hasn't fou- doodle-dooop it's lou - I made Lou record that after my Grease production. 

I opened my phone to see what Louis texted. 

*louis pov*

As I left Harry's house I saw an old friend. At least that's what I thought. 

"Hey buddy! Long time no see," I said to the man.

"Hey man?" The man said silently questioning himself. 

"So how have you been Joshua?" 

"Joshua- oh good how about yourself," the man played along.

"Have you seen Harry lately?" 

That's when the man's eyes lit up, he remembered Harry from second grade. "Nah, but I've been thinking about that one day in second grade. When- who was it oh- Nick punched Harry in the jaw?" 

I replied with a yes and a slight nod. Harry still has a scar from that day. God I hated Nick. 

"Oh- wait now that I think of it I saw Harry about a week ago. I was at Gemma's party and he was hitting it off with Eleanor! Sucks to his girlfriend," the so called 'Joshua' said. The man definitely knew his name wasn't Joshua, it was Nick. 

"-um Boyfriend actually. Wait ex-boyfriend," I said as I pulled amout my phone and walked away. 

to Harry Baby 😘❤️💋 : Listen we need to talk. 

Harry Baby 😘❤️💋 : About what?!?!?

to Harry Baby 😘❤️💋 : I know what you did. How could I be so stupid. Like just stop, stop. I can't believe you did this. I've loved you for longer than you know it. And that day we met at the football field doesn't mean anything anymore. I hate you so much. I never wanna see your ugly face ever again. Tell Simon I'm not coming to the meeting tonight if you're gonna be there. But I swear if you ever mess with me or my friends. Im gonna beat your little a$$ up! You f***ing idiot! Don't talk to me ever Harry! Never again. 

I blocked Harry's number and deleted his contact not wanting to ever see him again. I decided I needed to move on. 

*harrys pov*

I sat down my phone with tears welling in my eyes. 

you are worthless, kill yourself- kept repeating in my head. 

I took off my trousers and my t-shirt. As I opened the cabinet I wondered what I did to him. I guess we were over. That just made me cry even more. I tried to wipe my tears as I shuffled in the cabinet to find a small blue bag- it reminded me of my Lou- I mean Louis. 

I unzipped the bag and took out a new blade. I lightly drew a heart around my leg with the blade. Then I stabbed the blade into the heart, making it represent mine. Broken. Unloved. Worthless.

I continued by making more marks on my legs and stomach. 

I decided I'm just gonna do one more deep one. That should relieve me for now. I yanked the blade across the skin near my intestines. This one hurt the most. I tried cleaning everything and growing on a hoodie but once I sat down I couldn't get up. 

I started to have a coughing fit- then I was filled with nausea. I ran to the toilet and threw up a bunch of blood. As I looked into the bloody toilet I started seeing black spots in my vision. 

Then all I remember was darkness. 

Nothing.

Nobody.

No pain.

Was I dead?

end of chapter 1! small chapter and small cliffhanger! I'll try to do over 1000 words but this one was only 855 words!