diary - thoughts?

random 2am gibberish

i sctually want to kill myswlf right mow, irs not even funny snymorw evetything hurts evetything i do i try to be a giod friebd but i just cant i cabt be a good friend wveryrhing fucking hurts why cant i be a normal girl without feeling like i dont beling in here like im not in my owm body why can i just fucking die evetythubgs draibibg i hust wanna gwt dome lills ans fucking kill muyaelf or slot my wrists i cant do itanymore eveythinga shitty no matter how much i tey i dissapoint eveyyobe i cant be a fucking good friend i just wanna be normal what the fuck is axtually wtong with me i cant fucking explain it wgat the hells wrong with me