I'm a Fool

CAP 2

What did I just do?

He was so shocked. His eyes wide open looking at me with fear

I've never done that before because we always talk things out.

- shit, i'm sorry nhu i didn't mean to shout at you

He looked down

-it...it's ok, i'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you

-i'm sorry nhu, i'm just frustated

He let go of me still looking down

-it's ok hia, i get it. I'm going to the bathroom. Sorry

He hurried to go

-sigh- i'm an asshole

I sat down again and grabbed my head. I better leave before i mess everything up more. I'll have a walk and i'll talk to nhu later to apologize.
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I thought i was just going to be out for a couple of minutes but i went for hours. It was starting to get dark when I came back and we needed to go home. Maybe i can convince nunew to come to my apartment and if i'm lucky he will forgive me.

I went in but i didn't see him. I went looking for p'aof maybe he knows where nhu is.

- hey phi, have you seen nhu?

He looked at me with a weird look

-His dad picked him up i thought you knew.

-What?

Shit... he's really mad

-Did something happened zee?

- what?! no, no, everything is fine. Well is getting late i'll get going. See you

- yeah...  sure... take care

He wasn't convince at all so i left quickly to avoid questions.

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When I arrived home i went to my bed and sat down with the phone in my hands thinking what am i going to tell nhu.
I laid down on my bed looking at the ceiling thingking that if i wasn't so stupid we could be here, cuddling, stealing kisses... him lying on my chest and me looking at him, smelling his silky hair or kissing his neck 'cause god... he smells so good.

I'm a fucking fool.
I sat on my bed, took a deep breath and called him.
I waited for him to pick up.

-Hello? hia?

Thank god i'm still hia

-hey! nhu? I'm really really sorry love. Would you hear me nhu? I want to explain why i reacted like that today.

I waited for him to say something.

-mmm ok, go ahead

-Thank you nhu!
Maybe you know but it's them again, the same people making rumors about me. I was scrolling down our hashtag on twitter when i saw them. Posts about me having a girlfriend, about me lying to you and bla bla bla
The same old thing. I was so frustrated and mad that you ended up paying for everything. I know you wanted to change the mood but i was so pissed that i pushed you away. I'm sorry nhu, please forgive me love

He sighed and said

- It's ok hia, i thought it may have been that and nhu is sorry for being so persistant

He's an angel, saying sorry when he did nothing wrong.

-No,no, it's my entire fault. I acted like an asshole when you only wanted to help me. I'm sorry nhu for screaming at you, that's not ok

He chuckled

- Stop saying sorry hia, i understand. We all have moments like that

- I don't deserve you love

He laughed

- It's true... i'm joking.
Do you feel better now?

- yeah... i was more worried of you being mad at me. When i didn't see you in p'aof house i got scared.

- I called my dad to pick me up to give you space.

- Space i don't want now

- he laughed- well that's your punishment

-yeah, i deserve it.
nhu? is everything ok between us?

- of course hia, i love you just the same

I'm a lucky bastard, i know

- good... i can breath again love

-stop being so dramatic hia

-ok ok, let's go to sleep 'cause tomorrow we have an event. Good night nhu, dream about me and see you tomorrow. Love youuuuuu

- Good night hia, i love you too

Taking a deep breath I went to get ready to bed knowing everything is good...

Right?

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