My love. I made a small discovery and I want to share it with you. I know you love to get me things and it frustrates you when you ask me what I want you to buy me and I say I don't want anything. Well, let me tell you why.
My whole life my mom and dad worked to give us things. Work, buy, work, buy, an endless cycle. Eventually it got to the point where it felt like the things became the symbol of their love. But I never gave a shit about any of that. I didn't want their things. I wanted genuine love, I wanted to feel accepted, cared for and not judged. I wanted to be outside doing things and not dread the idea of going home.
Since the day I met you, you have given me all the things I've been starving for. You cared for me, you loved me. You make me excited to come home every day, and to stay at home when I can. I love being in our home as much as I love going outside and doing things. And even though I tell you I feel judged sometimes, that's a reflection of how I was always made to feel before you, not a result of our dynamic.
It's like that post you sent me once about how a trauma response from the past can come up unconsciously in present moments, which is something I have to work on. But I need you to know that you already give me EVERYTHING. As long as you stay who you are - and with your convictions I know you will - I will never need or want everything else. I just want you, as you are, every day for the rest of our long lives together. I love you always - Your Supergirl.
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Notes to My Wife
RomanceMy wife and I are avid readers and writers. This book is a compilation of notes I write to her and continue to put aside for later. One day, these notes will be printed, bound together , and given to my wife. She deserves the best of my efforts of a...
