Racing for love

Chapter 19 ~ love ?

'I love you Y/n'

The words rattled around my head, echoing in my ears still. I didn't know he felt this strong.

'I always have and I will never stop.' He added, now frustrated.

I walked back and leant against a wall of his room. My breathing was heavy and my thoughts were everywhere, so were my feelings. What was I going to do ?

'You don't mean that.' I slurred my words together.

'You've always been so blind Y/n. How could you never notice ?' He slightly yelled.

'Charles you're my best friend.' I reminded him. His face dimmed the more I tried to regect him and put him back in place.

'I want to be more than just your best friend !' He shouted at me.

'You've never loved me so I don't know why I'm still trying.' He went to grab his coat, but I knew. Even if he left, I'd wait here until he came back. But if I let him leave I'd regret it for the rest of my life.

'I've always loved you !' I stopped him from leaving.

'Since the day our mums introduced us I've been in love with you. You don't think it hurt me when I left ? I begged my parents every day to come back to Monaco to see you ! And when I did you were too late. But I'll always love you.' I screamed back at him.

This was such an angry love confession.

His eyes calmed and he looked at me, searching for an answer in my eyes.

He took a step towards me and held my arms in his big hands.

'I can't- I'm sorry.' I sobbed pulling away from him. I knew were I'd go. Maybe he'd find me but I didn't care anymore.

I ran down the stairs, his footsteps making it obvious that he was coming straight after me.

When I made it out of the house I remembered that I didn't have a car. So I just ran. Around the corner and down the street. Not changing passe until I reached the steps of the hotel.

'Y/n.' I was stopped.

I gasped for air. I had just ran about a mile, I was stressed, crying and wished I didn't exist.

It hit me all of a sudden who it was that had stopped me. Who's face was in my sight.

'Slow down, what's wrong ?' Pierre asked.

Seriously can I not get a break.

Another tear streamed down my face while I looked at him once more. I stepped back from him and sprinted up the steps.

All the way to Lando's room.

I knocked on the door, loudly and quickly. When he answered I flew into his room and waited for him to shut the door.

'Y/n what happened ?' He questioned. I didn't say a thing. I just hugged him tightly around his chest, leaning my face on his shoulder.

I began to speak but all my words were slurred and I wasn't making any sense with how fast I was blabbering.

'Slow down. Just talk to me. I have all the time in the world for you okay ?' Another tear rolled down my face when he said that.

I felt so loved by Lando and I'd forever be grateful for him. I removed myself from him and we sat down on the bed.

We sat face on and I began to tell him everything.

. . .

'You know what ?' He began.

'No what ?' I sobbed, still facing him while he stared at my streaming eyes.