The soft sunlight escaping through the lining of the trees seems like something that could only be imagined. Then I remembered why I was here. I felt the anger and hurt going through my body as if it were blood surging through my veins. I just thought about all the ways I could have gone wrong.
Then I saw myself looking down towards my phone and then running through the trees screaming. "Why did it have to end like this? What happened? What could I have done differently?"
Then I pictured you, "Why couldn't you have have the guts to tell me in person? YOU COWARD!" Then I sank to the ground as the water works engulfed my flannel shirt leaving hot tears streaming down my face against the cool wind. I faced the ground growling in defeat. How could I let you have this much control over me, when you would hurt me this much.
You were my life, I didn't do anything that didn't involve you. You took over my heart just to break it. But why was I so wrapped up in you? Now that I look back, you weren't a good person. You took over my life and chose everything for me. How could I let you have this much control. That's why it hurts so much. Because you were my life and now you are gone.
But that's okay because I don't need you in my life, I am better off without you anyways. I can finally make my own decisions. Maybe I can have friends now without your always prepared critiques. Why did I ever think I needed you? Here comes my new found freedom!!
