Yearn. (ethan landry)

1. The Frat

 It was quiet as I lifted another shot and downed it shaking my head violently in disgust as the liquid burned my throat, slamming the cup on the table "WOOH" I started screaming, everyone around me joining as the music started playing again. I feel strong arms grab my hand to pull me down and off the table.

"ok! that's enough for you"

"chad this is a frat, let me liveee" I slur and through head back "go bother Tara" he ignores me and bring me to this random corner of the party.

"I'm just watching out for you, you never know what could happen in a place like this".

I was going to say something when I noticed the way he was looking at me. Even in my drunken state I could tell what it was. Worry. Extreme worry. I understood why, all of us have been through so much that there never is a time without worry.

"ok ok, i'm sorry i'll be more careful". I exhaled as he smiled knowing I was going to think before anything.

He grabbed my arm again and started leading me somewhere, I couldn't help but feel someone piercing gaze on me. I couldn't locate it til Chad had dragged me all the way to our destination. That's when i saw the curly headed, golden retriever, nerd.

Ethan.

That's who was staring at me. He looked at me, then looked at Chads hand still grappling onto m arm. He was about ready to say something when Anika came up to all of us. "Hey big guy we need you" she said in a hurry

"why?"

"it's Tara"

"well lead the way then" he almost yelled at her. I could almost see Ankia flinch and had to hold in my laugh. Nevertheless, Anika started walking to where i assumed Tara was, Chad following, when he abruptly stopped. 

"I'll be right back to both of you, Ethan, keep her safe" he said as the both of them wondered off to go find Tara.

Ethan and I just stood there awkwardly as the music blasted around us.

"So-"

"Ar-" 

We both said at the same time. We both paused and looked at each other waiting for someone to talk first and I couldn't  stop myself from bursting out laughing, him following. 

"you go first" i laughed

"... u-well... I saw you two over there, I was gonna come over to make sure you were alright but uh chad beat me to it" I don't know why but I swear when he said that he looked a little defeated.

"I didn't want to interrupt you and Chad looked pretty cozy." he said quietly looking anywhere but my eyes, he settled for the floor.

There was an awkward pause, I didn't know what to say.

"Chad and i-... we're just friends, he's like a big brother to me. He just wanted to make sure I was ok".

As she said this, Ethan's jaw clenched in irritation which went unnoticed by Wanda, as she was talking.

"PLUS, plus chads not even my type anyway. OH! And have you not seen him and Tara? They are made for each other.'' I exhaled trying to get him to believe me, I don't now why I wanted him to believe me so bad. 

Then it got quiet, too quiet.

I look up to see Ethan just staring at me, and I couldn't help but stare back. I looked at him, and I mean really looked at him. I noticed his hazelnut curly hair, and the freckles that dusted his cheeks. Then his eyes, don't even get me started on his eyes. They were as dark as freshly made coffee, pure, rich coffee. They were the most beautiful, captivating eyes I had ever seen, staring right back at me. I felt myself draw closer to him as if there was a force pulling me to him. I couldn't control myself in this moment, i got so captivated by him that i couldn't even control my own body. But it turns out i wasn't the only one, looked like the same thing was pulling him closer to me.  Even with music blasting and drunken teens dancing violently around us, it felt like we were the only two in the room. I didn't even know what i was doing anymore, was i still drunk? Was I acting like this BECAUSE of the alcohol? I just ignored my thoughts and wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. Ethan stumbled a bit not expecting the needy pull from me.

"Wanda I-" he said with heavy breaths

 We were close, so incredibly close. I could feel his breath on me, there was barely a centimeter left of space between us when-