zakhm e afsos

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Teri har ek burai pe danten wo dost....
Gum ki ho dhoop to saya bane tera wo dost.......
Nachein bhi eo teri khushi mein ....
Are yaaron Dosti badi hi hasin hai .......
Ye na Ho to kya fir bolo ye zindagi hai...
Koi to Ho razdaar .....
Begaraz tera ho yaar........
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Kartik had badly regretted his mistake it has been a several days that both Netra and Rumi will gone from his life and it had been hell for him. Because till now it didn't matter how he behave with them but still they used to come to him to spend some time with him.

may be that was the reason he totally used ignore them, because they never left alone so that he didn't felt their importance in his life.

And now that both of them will gone he got to know that his life was totally dependent on them whenever he was sad he used to tell his problems to them. whenever he feel happy he is used to share it with them.

all his fears were known to them and they always help him to overcome his fears. They were real reasons why he was here now standing in front of all with a pride.

Because if the hadn't came in his life his life he would have been  still that timid child who used to sit silently on one place watching other kids.

But they gave new direction to his life, they brought light in his life, they made him happy and he shamelessly insulted them.

But he was most angry on himself for hurting his nana she loved him so much. she so selflessly loved him.

that letter conveyed her innermost feelings for him. no one can love anyone like that to anyone, but what does he did, he insulted her feelings. y
He was sure now that she must be hating him.

He still remembered the look which she gave him while going away from him, he can't forget that look her eyes which held hate for him. he was breaking from inside remembering those eyes but he couldn't do anything both of their parents had denied to give their location him as Netra and Rummy had told to their parents that they should not give their address to him because they don't want him to lose his concentration on his dream.

His father also didn't know where the both have gone, their number was also changed he can't contact them .

His mind was only revolving around one thing that was written in that letter that wait for my call he without eating anything for continuous 2 days but still no one called him at last his body give up and he collapsed and was taken to hospital by his father and bua.

His father and bua were also very worried about him.he used to stay very silent , he also left his gang and also broke up with Tiya they were never in relationship from starting so it was not even break up he only left her.

Only akii talked to him sometimes ,as he can't see Karthik in that condition.

his father and bua didn't know why he was behaving like this, they thought that it must be  college pressure that he must be feeling so decided to send him on vacation to Shimla.

He denied at first but after so much insistence of his father he also accepted it and went to Shimla.

when he came to Shimla he remembered the time at which he came there with romi and Netra in their summer vacation.

How he was being afraid to skate on the ice but both of them held his hand from both side and teach him to skate on the ice.

A small smile made a way to his lips remembering their this little little happy moments ,a drop of tear also fell from his eyes that where those time got lost and how much did he changed how bad did he changed.

Why did he started to care so much about status, why he started to differentiate between rich and poor was it because of his friends??? the answer was "no"  it didn't matter how much they filled his mind, but if it truly loved his friend, he shouldn't have came in their talks.

But that time he got distracted he got lost in his own word he was feeling very thrilled becoming friends with so much peoples and to coming in  the high class that he forgot all things around him

Maybe it was his teenager hormones which played a major role in all of this, but he can't totally blame them the most person in  fault was him but now it was all useless as he can't go back to past and correct his mistakes.

He wanted to find them at any cost. He wanted to know where they were ,but he was powerless ,he didn't have any power to search them he can't take his father's help as , he can't tell his father about all this mess.

So he decided that he will become much powerful just to find them from then on he started to take study seriously, he only used to go to college study there and come back home.

He didn't tried to make any friends ,he didn't talk to anyone. sometime used to talk to Akki but most of the time he was  busy in his studies.

He started come first in the class in each exams. he become topper. and like this five years has passed .

So how was it please tell me your opinions to  improve my self.
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