The Dance of the cursed gods

What are you doing to me?

(Back at Mary's house, Jamie's POV)

I looked at James hoping he would say something but his head was in the crook of my neck hugging me from my back. And I knew he was shaken up about the fight because he only does this when he's sad, or I'm sad, but our friend group never fights like this unless we are arguing about something stupid, Like one time me, Mary,Danni,Kenya ,and Kenya's cousins were being stupid about who was winning in mario kart. But none of us was winning, Kenya was actually the one winning. "Is what Kenya said true?" James asked me. Even though it was I didn't want him to know that but he knows when I am lying, he's like a lie detector but he can only tell I'm lying when I stutter so I made sure I didn't and said "No I don't know why she said that. She was probably was too angry to know what she was saying.". I could tell his chin was on my shoulder and he was looking at me to make sure. For some reason he says that I start to fiddle with my fingers when I am lying, But I didn't know why he was saying that Until we arrived I now know that I infact do fiddle with my fingers when I am lying. But before he had lifted his head up I was fiddling with my fingers but I stopped myself before he saw me. "Can we sit down for a bit?" James asked me and I nodded. He let me go from the hug and walked with me up to my room. " We should probably clean the house up in a bit." He said while following me. "Yeah we should but can we just chill for now please?" I asked him while stopping in front of my door. He nodded and opened the door for me then followed me in, "So what do you wanna do?" he asked me while sitting in my swinging chair but making enough room for me to get in. I just shrugged my shoulders and said it really didn't matter but I just wanted him to snuggle with me because usually Mary or him would snuggle with me when I'm sad, Kenya would too sometimes but only if she's sad too. I grabbed my t.v remote and put on a movie for us to watch but he seemed to be looking at something, I asked him but he said it was nothing so I let it be but 40 minutes in the movie I get a call from my boss so I excuse myself, I left the room and closed the door and answered him. "Hello." I said, trying not to sound nervous but it probably didn't work, " Hey Jasmine we-", "Don't call me that....". I don't like being called Jasmine, that name is dead to me, I hate when people call me that, it annoys me so much. My hate for my original name is so bad that it could be a person and someone could be burning it and I wouldn't care I would sit there and smile, but sadly I have to live with the name that monster gave me and I hate him for it but there are other things he said and done to me that make me hate him. " I don't care Jasmine I am your boss I can call you what I want, any ways we are changing the plan your going to have the bomb with you instead we will tell you where to plant it." he said, and I was shocked and mad but I was shocked because I was supposed to fly a plane kinda like a suicide misson but my boss a few weeks ago said I had to fly the plane into the building because we needed justice for our contrey afghanistan, but I was mad about the tone he used with me because he knows I hate when people give me attitude while talking because it's disrespectful but I was also mad because he knows I have 3 younger siblings, and 2 brothers, but they look up to me as a mother well the younger ones do. my brothers I look up to them, because our dad was never there during our childhood and whenever he was it would end up with my younger siblings crying over my passed out body while the other 2 were putting bandages on me , and since I was just going to jump out of the plane and parachute to a safe spot to leave but he ruined that for me now guess I gotta die just for his so called justice and whatever religion he believed in but I made that plan so he thought I was dead so I would be free but I guess he knew my plan but the only person who knew was-"........ That BRAT I TOLD HER FOR A REASON SHE WAS IN THE PLAN TO I AM GONNA KILL HER TOMORROW AT WORK GOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE HER!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, I heard the door starting to open so I said I had to go and hung up on my boss and turned around to see James looking at me with a shocked face. "Why are you screaming you never do unless.... Wait, Kenya was she being mean to you if she was I can talk to her for you." I immediately started frantically shaking my head no and said it was my dad and then he backed off about it and said "Well your brother said he loves you and to not cause trouble." in a monotone voice. I looked at him and god was he handsome but I knew I wasn't ready to confess to him but he probably won't except my feelings but then I felt something pick me up and I realized it was

James and That's when I realized How bad I was falling for him..... God what are you doing to me James?