dont fuck up

U deserve it

bri

1:39 pm

"take me home." i stood sternly in front of both my parents with puffy eyes.

"brianna look" my dad started to laugh and covered his mouth.

"we know this is a big step for you but just imagine all the opportunities—"

"i dont care about opportunities, i dont care about whoever the fuck my roomate is and how she's gonna feel when i leave just take me home." i cut off my mom

"bri-"

"no dad, no" i freaked out.

i don't like being far from my parents and meeting new people. i havent been here for 20 minutes and i already hate it. they even demoted me to the cheapest dorm option available on campus because some fucking privileged white valley girl had a mental breakdown and bitched about how i somehow stole her roommate in villa hall. so they switched me to storm hall which is across campus and has stupid fucking communal bathroom's and limited personal space.

"i could reach my arm over to the right and finger my fucking roommate if i wanted to, thats how much breathing room we have in here!!" i exclaimed.

"doesnt sound too bad to me" my dad joked.

"ok ignore him bri, listen..." she paused and looked me in the eyes. "did you take your meds this morning?"

i froze. "i forgot" i said with no emotion displayed on my face.

it must've been because trippie was so hard on my mind after last night. he's all i could think about for the past 14 hours. but i know ill most likely never see him again and i have to let him go before he completely deranges my mind. the only problem with that and my mentally ill ass is that letting people go isn't so easy for me. even if i met them less than an hour ago...

"well we aren't gonna live with you to remind you anymore brianna, you cant just 'fOrGeT' " she lectured me.

"your crazy ass is gonna get someone killed in here skipping days young lady" my dad chimed in to dick eat.

"they dont even work anyway who cares" i laid back on the hard dorm bed and put my hands over my eyes. moments later i felt some pressure on the bed beside me and then felt my mothers arms around me.

"we love you bri" she said softly. "please take your medication every morning. it might not be the cure but it saves you from a lot of trouble. especially in times like now where we have to leave you"

"yea and we needa get going because i dont have all night so bring it in!!" my dad pulled me up and in for a hug. i sighed and gave him a less genuine hug back.

Ash

i kissed michael over and over and over all over his face until he looked like a valentines day letter.

"yall so gay. doing this nasty shit in front of my face though??" trey dick ate in the background.

"just wait till tonight you gon really hate us then" michael laughed.

"fuck yall" trey bitched.

i looked down and gazed into his pretty brown eyes. i can't believe after four years of dating this man and not seeing him in the flesh since the beginning of our freshman year, my entire high school experience, i finally get to actually hold his face, and kiss his lips and sit on his lap and just admire his beauty beyond a screen. my stink, my love, my ride or die, my man my man my man and his stupid fucking decisions that still don't affect the love we have for each other no matter what.