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fear

This Thursday has been, as every other day, a very normal day in the life of the four Abba members. All of them had met at 8 a.m at Mono and befor they started working had a cup of coffee together, simply exchanging stories.

Usually they than finally started recording at 9 a.m. Frida and Agnetha standing in the recording room and Benny and Björn being behind the glass in the controlling room, looking over the ladies.
As every day the boys were still amazed by how wonderful Frida and Agnetha still sounded together and at how much their voices were still smooth like honey.

After three hours they took a break for at least one and a half hours and than gathered together again for three or four more hours befor than going their seperated ways again.

That has been their rhythm over the last few weeks they've been together again. Today it wasn't any diffrent. They came together in the morning and seperated in the early evening. Frida than went home to Henry, Björn to Lena, Benny to Mona and Agnetha went home to her children and Grandchildren as she was the only one not having a partner.

It was around 7:50 p.m when three of the four Abba members got horrible news. Görel, their long time manager, friend and good soul of Abba had notified Frida, Björn and Agnetha that Benny had been brought into the hospital because he got into a car accident.

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Three hours later Benny's family and his three closest friend were sitting in the waiting room of the private era of the hospital, praying that his operation would go well. Mona was leaning on Ludvig and he gave his mother the support she needed. She was very scared for her husband and had a great fear of loosing him. Björn tried to put his fright aside and gave all his strength to support Frida and Agnetha. Heléne and Peter were at home, taking care of all the little ones from the family but always staying in touch with their younger brother Ludvig.

The doctor had only told them that Benny had some fractures and inner bleedings which had to be stopped nessecarily because otherwise he would die, that was for sure. None of them wanted to imagine just at the slightest how life would be without Benny but just now he was on the precipice of death and none of them could do something against it.

The hours passed and passed and passed. Many people told them to go home or to eat something but all of them refused to leave Benny and his fate back. Morning already began to break in when a Doctor finally approached them, seeing the shimmer of hope in their eyes which was there for good cause.

Mona immediately got up as did the others. Ludvig took his mother's arm and Mona clung to him with all her being "Doctor, how is my husband?" she asked, hoping to receive the news she was waiting for

"Mrs. Andersson I suppose?" the doctor asked as he extended his hand to Mona, she took it and nodded "I'm Dr. Lindbergh, I was in charge of operating you husband" he began, clearly noticing the fear of all the person there being "I have good news for all of you! We were able to stop Mr. Anderssons inner bleeding and he is stable! We put him in a coma so that he can recover quicker and it's just a matter of time until he'll wake up"

"Oh god" Mona cried in relive as she hugged Ludvig. Frida and Agnetha sighted out loud feeling a huge weight being lifted off their shoulder. They hugged Björn and Frida even sheed a few tears, she had been too scared.

If she would have lost Benny tonight she was sure she couldn't have beared it. She couldn't lose another person she loved so dearly, not after Lotta and Ruzzo. If she would have lost Benny too she would have fallen back into that huge black hole that has always been one step behind her. Her whole life. Just the last 17 years it had not been directly behind her and she wanted to avoid it ever coming back.