Summer of '09

Six

A week later....

So much has happened. I can't even process it. Me and Eric have been fooling around a lot, I feel so bad because I have such an amazing boyfriend back home. Becky is legit on my ass 24/7.
Samantha has been fucking around with all the guys. I caught her trying to get with Eric. She tried apologizing but I just ignored her, I'm just so pissed off.
But why? Eric isn't mine. I have no right to get mad I don't own him, he can fuck with who ever he wants or whoever wants him. But then again I want to claim him
I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. "Why is life hard" I groaned. I was then suddenly caught of guard my a sharp pain in my stomach "fuck" I whispered grabbing my stomach. What is time for my period? I didn't exactly know since we didn't have any calendars.
I slowly made my way to the teachers Cabin. I walked in to see Mrs.Tay reading a book "Darcy you're suppose to be in bed" "yes I know but I don't feel to well, um do you know what's today?" I carefully sat down on one of the chairs.
Mrs.Tay went over to her
calendar "its June 25" I nodded "thank you"
By the time I got back into my bed the pain had moved from my stomach to my heart. "what's going on?" I whispered to myself. It felt as if I was dying. I forced myself to sleep. Maybe sleeping the pain away will help. Tomorrow will be a good day I hope.

•The next day•

Today was a free day so I decided to go for a run. It felt amazing running through all these trees. I leaned against a tree to catch my breath.

I looked right and left. Fuck I'm lost. I walked left because I had ran towards the right. I wasn't looking up since I was watching my feet which caused me to dump into someone.
"Oh jeez I'm sorry" I looked up to see Oscar "oh hell no I'm not sorry" he put his hand against his heart looking hurt "well that's wasn't so nice." I rolled my eyes "fuck you Oscar you're an asshole you know that!" I tried to not yell but I couldn't help it
"What the fuck did I ever do to you?!" He screamed back. I punched him in the face "you know exactly what you did! Telling Becky that is what my dare to go fuck her and record it! Why would you do that" I punched him one last time. I kept walking leaving him shocked and in pain.
I reached the camp sight. I sat down on one of the benches. Someone sat beside me. I didn't bother to look because I knew who it was "I'm sorry" I sighed. it's time to forgive and forget.
"It's fine" I shrugged "no it's not, I shouldn't have came onto him, I know you guys aren't together but I knew how much you liked him"
Jesus Christ was it that obvious. "yeah but I should..I mean I have a boyfriend" I shook my head. I'm so disappointed in my self.
Sam was about to say something but before she could someone yelled "YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND"
I sat there frozen.. I knew that voice. You could hear pain in it. He must hate me so much right now. I slowly got up from the bench. Taking all the courage I had in me right now, which wasn't a lot, I turned to face him.
My heart shattered. His eyes were red and puffy. His face just yelled "sadness" "yes...." I whispered looking down at my feet while playing with my fingers "I..I'm.. I'm so sorry Eric, I do like you a lot it just..... it's just.... I'm sorry"
"No you're not sorry.. you know how much I love you. Yes love! You made me some way that I can't even explain, you helped me go through hell without burning myself. I thought you were the one, I thought that maybe when this camp shit is over we can go on dates and be cute together but I guess we can't. Fuck you don't speak to me don't look at me. Don't even think about me"
With that he left. My heart broke more. I don't even think that's possible.

• 2 Weeks Later (Last Day of Camp) •

Packing the last thing, I put my bag over my shoulder walking out. I glanced at the cabin one last time. I smiled.. Justin was right.
"Wow guys last day! I think this was truly one of best... One last activity!" Mrs.Tay smiled. She could be annoying but she was honestly such a caring lady.
"Each one of you will stand up and say how your experience was and what you loved most about it and what you've leaned..... So who's first!?" She smiled widely
I wanted to raise my hand but I thought I should go last. "me" Eric got up and stood in front of all of us. Great.
"My experience was amazing. Met so many amazing people. I think the thing I loved the most was a certain individual. She probably thinks I hate her but I would never. I learned that it's better to have loved and lost than to never loved at all tbh"
oh my god my eyes were watery. He walked back to take a seat. He gave me a small smile. I mirrored his smile but mine was weak. I still felt guilty for hurting him.
It's good to know he doesn't hate me.
"Next?" Next was Samantha
"I'm only going to say one thing.... Incredible" I chuckled. I knew she wasn't going to say a long speech.
Everyone had gone up except me. I was hoping Mrs.Tay didn't notice so I tried not make eye contact the whole time. "That was great Charlie... Ok so we have one little cupcake left" she looked at me.
Oh god please don't let me go up there "Darcy?" She smiled. my hear melted. All the memories of me and the crew talking shit about her came back to me.
How could I ever think this nice caring lady could be annoying? Help me Jesus
I got up in front of everyone.
"My experience was legit amazing.I thought it was going to be boring and stupid but it was nothing like that. What I loved most was.. I think all the people I met, like they helped me through a lot when I lost someone very close to me. and I'm glad to know he doesn't hate me" I smiled at Eric "I learned many things.. but what I learned the most was that. Give things a shot before you judge them" I sighed then went back to my seat
"I'm really going to miss all of you, This was my best group yet" Mrs.Taylin smiled. She was at the edge of crying. I quickly stood up and gave her a big hug.
I felt the rest of the group do the same. Wow, I felt so safe with them it was such an amazing feeling.
Taking my seat on the bus I started tearing up. I'm going to miss these people so much.
"Hey" Eric sat next to me. There they are the butterflies. fuck those weren't butterflies it was the whole damn zoo inside my stomach
"You know you never did loose me" I played with his fingers. "I was hoping to hear that,you never lost me either" God this kid makes me feel like something else
"I hope we can stay in touch. I really don't want you out of my life" I smiled at him "totally" he smiled back
"YO!" Justin stood up "I think we should all exchange numbers and do this again! Cause like honestly all you guys are super chill!" He yelled loud enough for all of us to hear
I smiled wide. One by one we all exchange numbers. "I love you guys so much" Sam smiled at me and Eric with tears in her eyes. "I love you so much more" I smiled "I love you too" Eric gave her a hug. I joined in. I chucked cause we tried not to fall since the bus was going a bit fast.
"I really don't want you guys out of my life honestly" she shrugged "same" I smiled. "same" Eric laughed.
I fell asleep on the ride home, I was missing Dallas sooo much. Once we arrived to the church. Everyone got off and went to reunite with their families. I ran to my mom. "I missed you so much" I mumbled. "I missed you too mija" She held me tighter.
"Cmon lets go..." she got in and so did I. She was about to drive off but I stopped her. "I'll be right back" I got off and ran to Eric. I turned him around and gave him a hug "I love you so much" he whispered "I love you" I whispered back.
I pulled away. i didn't want to say goodbye. because it wasn't goodbye "I'll see you later" He kissed my cheek. He fucking read my mind. "See you" I waved.
The ride home was quite weird. My mom didn't look at me, talk to me, or even make any sort of contact with me.
Once we got home I opened the door to her room and sat on one of the chairs she has. "Mom, are you ok?" I put my hand on her shoulder.
"Yes honey I'm fine, you should go out with your friends you must be dying to see them" she smiled
"Ok, if you need anything please text me" I weakly smiled at her. she nodded in response
Speaking of text... I went to my bag and checked if I had any text. Wow 15! I smiled wide I love my friends.
13 of them were from my girlfriends saying stuff like "WE MISS YOU!" "CANT WAIT TILL YOU COME BACK MUCH LOVE"
The other 2 were from Dallas

6/24/09 11:58 pm
Darcy...

6/25/09 12:03 pm
Please don't ever forget about me. I love you...

I texted him back

To: Dallas Boi <3
I won't silly! Meet me at the field in 5! Love you

I ran out the house and to the field. I sat down in the bleachers.

Half an hour later...
It's been 30 minutes since I texted Dallas and he hasn't came or texted back.

2 hours later...
Ok it's been officially 2 and a half hours and he still hasn't texted. I started to get worried. "Darcy?" I smiled wide. I turned at the sound of my voice.

"Oh my god..."

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