sunsets with jude

chapter nineteen- on top of me

Emilia Shapiro

Once again, that annoying bitch Jackie strolls by and continues to make Jude uncomfortable. Why the hell is she pretty enough for a guy her age, but goes straight for the almost junior in high school instead?

Other than the blonde chick's shenanigans, I enjoyed our first date. We got to know one another over the best food on Earth that isn't Chick-Fil-A. 

"I'm so full." Jude sighs. Jude looks hot right now, and it's not just because his pale ass is now red and sweaty. Damp, dark strands of hair cling to his soaking wet forehead and those thick arms rest on the table. His polo hugs his glorious and hefty upper body. If there's one thing Jackie and I agree on, he is the cutest. 

I offer to take him home and hang out, but want to swim really bad. Jude goes along with it, letting me know that he's going to change.

Of course I have the same idea. I strip into just my bikini and start to head out. The full-length mirror decides to fuck with my confidence as I almost cry at the sight of my figure.

Being a girl who loves to eat isn't something to be ashamed of by any means. I hate how I always look pregnant after having a good meal. There's a lot of extra chub on my belly from earlier and I hope Jude doesn't notice. I hold my breath, but sucking in my lunch only works for so long. 

"Fuck." I sigh, pinching the fat along my waistline. 

I can't just dip now because I'm due for a liposuction, but a lot of guys don't seem to understand that being bigger than Bella Hadid isn't the end of the world. Jude may be one of them. He loves my curves, but I always feel a little vulnerable around him because he has the ability to change how he feels about me.

Tears prick my eyes as the what-ifs race through my mind when Jade's converses come into view. She's wearing a navy bikini but the bottoms are covered by a pair of shorts. Unlike me, abs are etched into her toned stomach. 

"Hey girl!" She gives me a hug from behind. I love Jade to bits, but her kindness makes the tears spill.

Concern laces her features. "What's the matter?"

I'm upfront about my insecurities, choking on sobs as I relay to her my feelings. Jackie's advances are included in my rant."What if I get body shamed or something?"

"I will hurt his ass for you." She reassures me. "But EJ, you're so fucking gorgeous. Even if Jude messes up, that won't change."

"I know. I'm just a little worried." 

"Understandable. You are stunning on the inside and out no matter what he says." Jade's words fill me with comfort. "You're so confident and light up every room."

Exhaling, I immediately feel better. "I needed that."

"I couldn't think of anyone more deserving." Jade smiles, making me swallow her into another hug. "Go and have fun, hot stuff. He's had a thing for you for the longest time."

"Don't just say what I want to hear, Jade."

"He adores you!" 

"Whatever you say." 

"Let's go, hot stuff." She pats my butt and a laugh escapes from my throat. "So this is what you hide in those big ass sweatpants."

I erupt with laughter. Once I compose myself, I inquire about Tori. 

"Tori? I love that girl so much. It's just...I have to keep in the back of my mind that she might not like girls." Jade visibly starts to deflate. 

"I think the feelings are mutual. She'd love to see you after she's back from Seaside."