[ DISCONTINUED ] 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐋𝐄𝐍 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒. nagi seishiro

. 16

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ITS BEEN WEEKS since you knew about Nagi move in back to your hometown, and you both haven't talk for a while, you don't know why is the reason he don't talk to you anymore, but you felt awkward whenever he's around, you both are pratically stranger right now, and you don't feel comfortable with him acting like nothing happened.

However Nagi, don't even bother talking to you anymore, after crying and venting about his problem last time to you, he had enough, he don't know what your problem is, did he change alot that you can't even recognise atleast his voice, or face? Everyday, he always report things to Reo how about he were trying to be friend with you, reo always support him no matter what, but sometimes he always thinking if his effort worth it, do you still remember everything like he did? Do you still cherish the moment you were with him back then? You guys are literally just a kid, you probably already dump that stupid memories somewhere.

Reo told Mika about what happened between Nagi and Aria, she got mad after she knew who made her friend like this. It totally Nagi's fault, he just let out anything that pop out in his mind without thinking about people feelings, cause he don't even know about his own feelings, he don't understand himself, why do he needs to understand others? He have been all alone this past years, even though Reo keeps him company, he still feels lonely, his life feels boring, like there's no color at all, no emotion, no affections, no loves, no friends, everything alone, his parents were so busy to talk to him, play with him, help him with his homework, he did everything alone, his sister are on colleges, so it just him at home, alone with his cactus, choki. He talk to the cactus everyday, even though the cactus can't respond or talk, he don't mind it, cause he have no one else to talk with.

He don't feel like at home at all, he miss you so bad, if there were given a chance for him and you to meet again, he would do anything, but seeing you happy with your other friends and him struggling trying to be with you again, looking helpless is just.. pathetic, those thoughts have been in his mind for awhile, when he decides to ignore you, you don't even try to talk to him, nor approach him, maybe his heart were right after all, she doesn't care.

He still remember the first day on the school, he drew you in his sketchbook, yes, the day he didn't introduce himself to the whole class, just thinking how pretty you're after years, you've grown into a beautiful teenager, realizing he fall inlove with you again for the second time, your beauty is everything, your laugh is like a music to his ears, your laugh, he loves seeing you happy with life right now, how fine you're doing. But he's not at all, he grown into a depressed teenager, who just spend his time alone in his room, staying up late playing games, he smiled at the thought just now.

Nagi didn't know that you already knew about him, you already know who he is anyway, but you haven't plan a single things yet to what to do with him, all over this past weeks, he have been all gloomy, Aria did talk to you a little, but you guys aren't even that close as before anymore. You don't know what's happening with your life, just a little while ago everything is fine, and now it feels like god were testing you. About your housemate, they're fine with you, they understand your situation, Mika told everything she knew about Nagi and what happend to him when he's alone at Tokyo, you were obviously shocked by the explanation, you didn't expect how badly he were there alone, you feel truly bad, for leaving him, ypu remembered his message 10 years ago.

Find me, okay?

The feeling of the head pat is still there, you can't stop thinking about him lately, you feel like a true villain here, you're the one who suppose to find him, not him to find you again, you cried almost every night just thinking about this, and every morning your eyes will red, and you mostly will catch cold, and that's the reason you haven't come to school for 3 days straight, Isagi decides to take care of you at home while others went to school, at first, they suggest for Aria to take care of you, but she refused, she still haven't healed from the thought Nagi gave her, is it true? Y/n Don't want to be friend with me at the first place? Did she be friend with me just because Nagi left her? Those thoughts have been killing her, but you and her are of course in good terms, she don't want to left you dumbfounded, you probably have no idea what happen between her and Nagi, she don't want you to get involve with her problem, she prefer to deal it on her own, she don't want to be selfish, and she don't want to ruin the relationship you had with her, to her, you're the most unexpected friend she ever gotten in her life, you're always next to her, no matter what happen you always support her, even though you guys always had a fight, you guys alwayd get back together.

Nagi have been worried, for not seeing you 3 days straight, he wonder what happen to you, did you got sick? Or you just purposely didn't come to school? He knew that you've been living with your friends for months, when he ask Mika what happend to you, he was suprised that his hunch was right, you are sick.

At lunch earlier this afternoon, he sit with Reo at school garden, talking about random things when he suddenly mention about y/n, Nagi felt a little upset when the name got mentioned, he don't want to remember about her, not yet, atleast, he want to forget anything about her while he can. When reo mentioned that she knew about Nagi, there's a light in Nagi's eyes, but that lights fade away when reo said that she knew because he tell her, Nagi ball his fist, already feeling like wanting to punch Reo in the face right now for telling her his real name, he really thought that y/n recognise him, but she didn't, she did only after Reo told her, when she actually got the pieces together, when it does actually make sense that he's Nagi seishiro who's her childhood friend.

All the anger just turn into a sad feelings on his body, he don't know what to do anymore, he just want to be with you, alone. Like the last time you both were sleeping st the rooftop together peacefully, he wish that he could freeze the time and just stay there, just to be with you, he needs you, it suck a sick feelings. He hate it that he feels this way to you, why can't he develop this kind of feelings to anyone else? Just want kind of spell did you cast onto me, y/n?
Reo noticed that his friend were about to cry, he immediately reassured him that everything will be alright, but it ain't going to be, he don't know why he's so dramatic over such a small things right now, he just want to be wrapped in your arms, he miss when you stroke his hair. He really miss it.

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8 / 4 / 23

(a/n) : i cried while writing this