L and R

What is wrong with you

Today is my first day working as a knight for the prince. Not something I'm excited to do but it pays well. Working for a spoiled snob isn't something to look forward to. Royals are known by most people as caring, respectable, and kind people. But my grandma who has met many nobles says otherwise. They are just complete jerks who let their money and power get to their head so they treat everyone, even each other, like they are better than them. So Gram says anyway. Gram always speaks the truth.

I've been staying here at the castle for a couple days so the other knights can show me around and help me get the hang of things. I'm not new to being a knight though, just a new assignment. I've been training since I was 14 and officially became a knight at 16. I'm now almost 18. The longer I'm at the castle the weirder things here get. The knights barely talk, The king and queen aren't even here, The prince hasn't come out of his room, and I keep seeing the princess sneak random guys into the castle. I took pictures of the guys just in case one tries to (or does) kill her.

I walk up the fancy white stairs to get to the princes room. I get up the stairs and walk down the, also fancy, hallway with a long red rug going all the way down the white floor. I finally get to his room and knock on the door. I hear a voice from inside yell “Come in!” and so I do. The prince stands up from his bed. He has such light blonde hair it would look white from afar, he has dark skin, and hair that hasn't been cut and has just grown into a mullet. I’m not totally sure what I'm supposed to do now so I decide to just introduce myself. “Hello, Your Highness. I am Sir Raymond and I am the knight that has been assigned to you. It is my honor to serve you, Your Highness.” I couldn't even look him in the eyes while saying that. I'm not very good at the social part of my job.

He introduces himself back. “Hello Raymond! You can just call me Lucas.” He doesnt sound horrible so far I guess “I apologize but it would be quite unprofessional of me to do that.” He almost looks disappointed as I say that.  “Please, I would really prefer if you would just call me Lucas.” If I'm being honest, He’s very pretty. Oh my god what is wrong with me. Thinking that of a prince?! God, I'm an idiot. “If you insist..” that made him happy at least. Now that introductions are over, maybe I can relax and just sit outside of his room, guarding him.

“So, Raymond, tell me about yourself! What kind of things do you like to do?” He says, interrupting my hope of peace. “There's nothing about me that would interest you.” He looks so disappointed I almost feel bad. “..You could tell me about yourself.” I say just that one sentence and he's all better. “I like painting, stargazing, and… Oh! I like dancing. But my parents don't really let me dance anymore.” He says. His parents don't let him dance anymore? That doesn't make any sense. “Why don’t your parents let you dance? I thought that was some kind of royal requirement” I think my question made him a bit sad. I'm really not good at this kind of stuff.

“My parents said I dance too much and said it makes me seem like a ‘little fag’.”  He says. Seriously? Gram was definitely right about the nobles. That actually pissed me off a little. “What? If I may speak freely.. You should be able to dance as much as you want if it makes you happy. And what wrong with being a ‘fag’?” I say, I may have spoken a little too freely. “Well if my parents found out- if my parents thought I was gay they would beat me.” He says with almost a blank expression. “Wait.. you're gay?” I say and I instantly regret it. Who asks someone that? Let alone a prince. Oh my god. I've already made him uncomfortable. 

“Oh.. um..” is all he can say. He won't look at me and I can't blame him. I attempt to apologize. “Oh- I apologize.. I just heard you say ‘found out’ and then correct yourself so I just thought… You know.. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable.'' God, I can't even do that like a normal person. “No, no you're fine. I just haven't told anyone..” he says, I can tell he's a bit scared. “Don't worry. I won't tell anyone. It just caught me off guard from a prince. I am too actually. I think you deserve to know that since I accidentally called you out.” I say trying to fix the situation. I’m probably just making it worse though.

“Oh really? I wasn't expecting that either.” He says, now smiling. Thank god. This couldn't have gone any worse. “Yeah. You’re 17, right? I am too.” I say, trying to change the subject to something not gay. It's too awkward. “Yeah! Maybe this won't be as bad as I thought.” He smirks at me as he says this. What. “Wait- no don't think of this like that.” I really shouldn't have to say that. “Oh no I just meant hopefully you will be better than my last knight” He says. Well now I'm intrigued as to how bad that guy had to be to give me of all people some hope.

“Have you had bad experiences with past knights?” I ask, hoping I'm not digging too far into this. I dont think I'm even supposed to ask questions. “Yeah, I haven't had a knight assigned to me in a while because the last one had a thing for my mom but I'm assuming you're not gonna lock me in a room to get into my moms pants.” he says. He said that way too calmly. What kind of knight… “Oh my god. No. I won't. Absolutely not..” I say. How can you just put that out there right when we meet… this is going to be a lot and I already know it.