She Doesn't Know

laziness over hunger?

The ceiling looks the same as it always does,thinking about this her eyes rested on her digital watch and she realised it was already 5:08 PM. Why specifically a digital one? Because it takes her way too long to check the time on a normal one or so she told everyone. Suddenly she is brought back to reality and away from her thoughts about her watch by absolutely nothing and she starts pondering about what it was that made her come back to reality so she starts replaying the thoughts she had in that time span but gets annoyed when she realises she has been mindlessly thinking again and decides to instead focus on something else which then brings her to the fact that she is hungry and hasn't had lunch yet. She thinks about how angry her mom will be when she comes back from work and learns that her daughter skipped lunch so she decides to get up and eat something but stops halfway as the thought of her having to go downstairs and getting food makes her feel lazy so she lies back down on her bed in the same position but then suddenly a thought crosses her,maybe she could just put a plate in the sink to make her mom think that she had lunch.she tries to get up a second time but again dismisses this thought because of her laziness.In the end she gives up and thinks maybe she can just suffer her mom's scolding instead. This reminds her of her initial thoughts which makes her  check the time again and in doing so she realises it has only been 10 minutes. This makes her annoyed as she thinks about how many thoughts she had in the time. These thoughts were so many in number and felt as if    it had been at least 30 minutes. She feels like a prisoner to her thoughts and feels sad or maybe angry? She doesn't know.she just feels overwhelmed and feels even more sad about the fact that she can't do anything about it. If she tries to tell someone about her feelings will they understand? Time skips to her mom coming back and she is scolding her daughter about not having lunch and asks her for a reason but her daughter doesn't say anything because she doesn't know what to say. she herself can't understand why she did what she did. Now the mother is annoyed and they get in an argument so the daughter feels even more sad and angry.she doesn't know who she is angry at. in the end she decides to take a nap because naps do fix everything don't they? Maybe she'll be a different person when she wakes up? Or maybe not.